I talked to my dad this morning…When ever we “talk” he lectures me and tries to tell me what to do and I listen. He always makes me feel bad about myself… He thinks I’m just a wimp and that I should just forget about my past and get on with my life. This morning he went on about my illness and said I should be out there working / playing and making my mom proud!… I can’t believe he said that!!! He knows it as well as I that she put us through hell….How can he even suggest something like that? Did he say that to deliberately making me feel worse about me cutting up my hand….He knows I can’t play out there any more…… He said a lot of other things that got me down but this was the worst of it…I can’t Si cause wife is home….that’s good I guess or else I’d do something bad…