How can I stop this without hurting someone else at the same time?
There are way to many people who I would hurt…. yet I can’t think of another way… Don’t worry though I’m not going to do anything….
I’m in the GriefRecovery chat room ( where I’ve been hosting ) and this girl came in…. the first time she is here….. she wants to die.
I can’t chat there…I just freeze up when people start talking about s*d…yet I’m here thinking about my own…..
I can’t deal with anything tonight…. Today has been very difficult….. I had a hard time at my t where we talked about a lot of difficult things from my past…. some ugly memories that I’ve been getting… Karen was able to help me a little today though she was scared too….
Had to go to the doctor too today cause my last cut was infected…. Luckily I got the same doc who was at the ER when I got the stitches….he was cool about it tho… I kind of lost it a but when he stitched me up cause I was little and scared…
One thought occurred to me today about SI…. Since I came home from the hospital I’ve cut 6 times and I’ve been to the ER 4 times….when I’ve had to go to the ER I don’t remember the cuts but I remember the little ones….