He was able to stand on a big stage in front of hundreds of people and to make them smile… create music that would bring people to cry…
He was able to put his demons a side and share his gift to the world. But somewhere on the way the demons took that away…the moments where he would be safe, alone on the stage… and afterwards hear them calling for more…
That was the time when the one person he wanted to accept him would say nice things about him… after a concert…. That were the moments he felt normal, and even thought it only lasted for a little while it made the time at home with her a little better.
But then somehow it became harder for him to go up there and enjoy it all…. Maybe it was because she was showing him a different kind of attention now…
And then she just left… and he felt all alone. He hated her for leaving like that and he was afraid… and he was angry with her… That fear and that anger made him believe that he would never enjoy the stage anymore….
Anger can make people do things that at the time they won’t think they will ever regret and he truly believed that he would never have any regrets… but he was wrong…
One moment in pain he felt he deserved… a moment that changed everything.
He thought to him self…
– This is where she flourished… this is where she was proud so that should be taken away from her…from the memory of her. She left and I am still here.
So he cut that part away and that did no longer exist in his life…
The anger and the fear were still there…. But it was different…
