I am not writing this directly to my weblog because about an hour ago my internet connection decided to drop dead on my… This happens but right now I need it more than ever because I need to feel that I have friends…that there are someone out there that cares enough about me just to make my twisted mind stop getting ideas on how to remove myself from this earth.
I have been reading over my previous journal entries and I have seen how dark they all seem… and I thought to myself…. do people really want to read all that shit? Is it just because they are waiting for a miracle… that one day I will stop acting like a 13 year old and grow up? …is it because blogs are addicted? Is it the feeling of knowing that there is someone having a worse time than they are? (yes someone actually e-mailed me to tell me that.) …or…. ??
Why do you come here?? Please tell me even if you think I won’t like the reason or if you have never posted a reply to this or any other weblog… I really need to know….
(((((((((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))))))))))))
I come for one simple reason: because I love you…and I always will.
because I love you – and just as much – because I *believe* in you, with all my heart and soul and life…… (((((((((( Gabriel ))))))))))
….because ((((((((((((Gabriel))))))))))) I love you! … and I care! … and I am one of your friends .. and I wish to be there when you need support .. and I know all your friends wish to be there when you need us .. so please tell us, email us, let us know!…
… and in your entries, between what seems dark … I see so much love and light and hope … and I believe in you! ((((((((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))))))
..I’m here because I love you, because I believe in you, and because I admire your strength, your heart. There’s so much I could say Gab, I want to be here for you.. I’m here for you.
Hugzzzzzzzzzz atcha Gab,
I look at your weblog everyday. I think that you have to keep saying saying what is on you mind over and over again before your brain really gets it.
Don’t give up your weblog and especially on yourself. There are a lot of people who really care about you. They don’t know what to say, but they do care.
Sending you great big healing hugzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
((((((((((((((((Gab))))))))))))))))
_Rick__
((((((((((((Gabriel))))))))))))) I come because I care about you and I am sincerely interested in how you are doing on this journey called life. Your words hold so much love and caring and compassion amidst pain and confusion and yes, I do see HOPE in your words too!!. By sharing your thoughts, your words; you are reaching out for that hope and promise that life holds. You are reaching out for your friends and we are all here for you Gabriel. We are all here eager to take your hand and beckon you to come walk with us; we will hold you up, Gabriel…don’t give up!! Walk with us. Love you!
I discovered this place about 1-1/2 months ago. I have been returning daily ever since. I have also been praying for you since then. I do not know your spiritual beliefs but….I KNOW without a doubt that God can heal you both physically and mentally. If you ask him into your life, he will be there for you. I will continue to pray for you.
I need a light sometimes, this seems to be my light. Cold darkness can be overbearing at times.
Thank you.
why? because I’m interested in your thoughts… I think keeping an online journal is a great way for you to get it off your chest… you have lots of friends here, lots of love and lots of hugs.
Gabriel, this is my first visit to your site. I saw your name on a support site for “Loss of a child” and decided to visit your site.(I lost a dear wee daughter in 1998) I have been reading now for 3 hours…. it is 11.50pm here in New Zealand. I seem to be drawn to you and what you have to say. You and “yours” have much to share and I believe we can all learn listening to others.
Love to you all, Stay safe 🙂
Di.
Hi Gabriel … I found your soul-stirring journal a few months ago and make it a point to visit at least weekly. I do not know you, but most definitely find myself keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Your posts are so painfully honest that they can’t help but strike a cord in ironic inspiration. Your inner strength, and yes, I mean absolute strength, is so visible as you unfold each moment of your life with the world. Thank you for being YOU, Gabriel!
I found your journal quite a while ago, and then lost it again…
I just read Sandee’s post to say you were back, and wondered if it was you.. it is!
I came before, and I’ll come again now, because I like your writing, and your honesty. I’m not sure how I found you the first time.. maybe from Jess’ site.