I am not writing this directly to my weblog because about an hour ago my internet connection decided to drop dead on my… This happens but right now I need it more than ever because I need to feel that I have friends…that there are someone out there that cares enough about me just to make my twisted mind stop getting ideas on how to remove myself from this earth.
I have been reading over my previous journal entries and I have seen how dark they all seem… and I thought to myself…. do people really want to read all that shit? Is it just because they are waiting for a miracle… that one day I will stop acting like a 13 year old and grow up? …is it because blogs are addicted? Is it the feeling of knowing that there is someone having a worse time than they are? (yes someone actually e-mailed me to tell me that.) …or…. ??
Why do you come here?? Please tell me even if you think I won’t like the reason or if you have never posted a reply to this or any other weblog… I really need to know….