ok I was going to write a pretty stupid and long rant about myself and how I have been behaving….just about me and my stupid behaviour offline and online…I haven’t been honest to people….I have pushed people away because they tried to help me…..anyway I’m back… I know I have to do some very serious thinking about my life…or my future…. I may need your help to do it…Thanks to Mike for lecturing me…..I don’t know if I can but I am going to try ….