I am going through a very strange experience at the moment… It’s almost scary…. I am not feeling any sadness/depression but it’s rather that I feel like I can do anything that I want…. I know I should be happy about this but considering that I am going through a divorce, recently been through a court case where I was ordered to pay almost all my monthly income for at least a year and I am missing my kids growing yup…. It’s like I don’t care….

Another thing that I find uncomfortable about this is that I am finding it very difficult to control my temper…. Not in that sense I want to “hit” someone or anything like that…but more like I get mad at people for just being them and saying what they believe in… and for little things like someone asking me a simple question like: “Did you see my cigarettes?” ….so all I can do at the moment is to throw myself into creative work on my website…Like I’ve been doing over the last few days…. I know people on the mailing lists I’m on are looking for me…. I know my ICQ friends are wondering if I’m ever online…. Now you know I guess…. I just don’t want to get mad at you !