I’m not going to be writing about the event of the past two days…. except I’m still keeping all of you out there who are hurting in my thoughts……

This morning I had a meeting with someone that is going to be helping me to deal with my fears/phobias and anxiety starting 10 days from now…. I am supposed to make a list of things that I’d like to work on to give them some idea (and me) of what we are going to be doing… This means that I will actually be doing things that scare the hell out of me and I have been avoiding for a long time now….

An example…… most of you have no problem picking up the phone and calling someone you love….a family member….your child even…. This is something that I have a big problem with…. and yet I know that there is no real danger in it…. One of the things that I have been having a very hard time with is to speak….even to my children…. Anyway, I am not going to put this list on the internet…not for now anyway….. However, even though I know…that because of the extent of my illness I may have to be prepared for some setbacks of this… This isn’t going to start until September 24th and I’m not sure if I will have much if any time to be online while this is going on….but I am going to do the best I can… …and this may sound like I’m asking to much….I know I am going to need all the support I can get….