I’m having a crisis (internal) so please bare with me for a while. I may sound like I’ve no idea what I’m writing…well in a way I don’t…I’m just writing what comes in mind…sort of to keep my fingers and my mind occupied…. I’m really going to try everything I can not to let this take me down…. I have people here that are willing to help me, my therapist who called in sick this morning even came by… and all the staff here is not treating my like a child anymore… (maybe I haven’t really given them any reason to lately either)

I have this assignment (given to me by my therapist) that I am to write down every time I see someone smile at me… I have a big problem with looking at another person so this is probably a good assignment…so far I have 5 smiles (probably more if I had been looking close enough)…