he knows he’s been neglecting this log recently… the last few weeks have been very hard and somehow he feel that he does’t have anything interesting to say. November and December have always been extreamly difficult for him…his birthday is coming up on the 17th… he has lots of bad memories attached to these months and those memories are keeping him awake at night… or he wakes up in the middle of the night…scared to death of something that he feel is real and it takes him a while to figure out that it wasn’t really happening… During the day it isn’t any better and because he’s not getting enough rest He find himself getting triggerd over something that he can usually deal with with out no problem…and then… to get back…even if it’s only for a minute or an hour…”a quik fix”…a feeling of pain…
just to be sure he is R E A L …