Always something that keeps me going no matter how bad it gets…something that I really don’t understand… Since I started eating again… I’ve been hurting the body everyday and shutting all my feelings inside… and if someone asks how I’m feeling I say I’m ok…. or if they don’t believe me I add “it’s just the usual”
I know I have a lot of good things going for me… I have people who love me and care about me… I wish I knew how to accept all that love….I mean really accept it… I know that everything that has happened in my past didn’t happen because of me being evil. “She” was wrong!.
Maybe I am kidding myself….what if I am? What if she was right? I think of those things all the time… What she said is sometimes so real to me… “They will love you” she said “they will love you because you use your power to make them love you, and then they will find themselves trapped until it’s too late for them. That is why you have to suffer. While you suffer the people are safe.”
No I don’t want to believe that is the truth… but still I wonder…
A good decent sleep might help…I don’t know what that is …it’s been a while since I didn’t wake up from a bad dream or someone else had been using the body and keeping it awake for most of the night…
I’m tired and I need to sleep….
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Gabriel))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
‘she’ was very WRONG !!
(((((((((((((GABRIEL))))))))))))
“She” was wrong, don`t hold the feelings inside of you, Gab. Let it out and reach out to all the people who loves you. Because; we do!!
Love, Sis
just wanted to give you some hugs!!!
as far as I’m concerned, only someone evil could have ever considered a soul like yours to be evil… (((((((( Gabriel ))))))))
Gabriel, I believe everything in life happens for a reason. I also believe that we would never know our true purposes without all the events leading up to that moment. You are such a joy to get to know.
It’s obvious *she* was wrong! Cause all I see is the kindest, sweetest souls I ever had the honor of meeting…I love You much my freind.
Oh to be “trapped in love”…that sounds like a dream come true to me, and not at all something to suffer for. If love were such a trap I dare to think it would be the most accommodating and joyous forms of bondage ever conceived.
Most assuredly, “she” was wrong, and any evil she ascribed was the sort that came from her own disused soul. Please don’t let her poison your own fertile ground. I’ve enjoyed seeing all the richness of your own soul here, and it saddens me to see such brightness become dull.
Please take care.
((((((((((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))))))))))) without a doubt, she was wrong. ABSOLUTELY WRONG!
She was wrong Gab. You are worth loving.
Hugs