First… I think the site is back at least it’s working at the moment…. but sure… with my luck that may not last…
I’ve had more news about my father…. He is still in hospital and will be for a while… This isn’t the first time he has had a heart attack but he’s doing ok and should continue to be ok….

…but… have any of you had this feeling that something really bad is going to happen… and then it did…. I don’t know… ever since I woke up this morning I’ve had this kind of feeling… I’ve had it before and things didn’t turn out too good then… My father and I don’t have much of a relation ship for a lot of reasons… one is that he is living in another part of the country….. but he’s still my father…

I wish I knew how to get things better between us… maybe we are too much alike for that to happen… Both of us have tried to work things out in the past but somehow we always end up in the same place as where we were before…