Everything seemed to be fine this morning, well it was fine…. I did the usual… read my mail…. talked to Sue and I was able to write quite a few e-mails, reply to people that I have been meaning to reply to for a while… didn’t finish the list tho but it’s a start… Becca, I haven’t been able to reply to your post yet… but I wanted to mention it here…and say thank you. It meant a lot to me… more than I can tell you with words of any kind… all I can say right now is thank you! and I love you too…
I had a little chat with Faith and to jules, and offered to help him out with a website for a yahoo group we’re on… Btw if anyone can think of a free webhost that I can actually sign up with I’d be happy for any tips on that. I’ve tried 3 this morning that are supposed to be good but I haven’t been able to since their signups seems to be out of order or something *sigh*. But it has to have ftp access and preferably cgi access…
I think that maybe this afternoon the news of my father are “kicking in”…. I don’t know… but my mind is spinning again like it was before I heard he was gone… and I’ve been thinking about him a lot today…. I am going to try very hard not to go back to the way I was a few days ago so there is a change that I might not be around much… though I know I can’t really keep away… not for long anyway… I feel lucky to have my online friends around… but I’m sorry if I worried you… I’m ok…. I will be ok… and all of this will pass someday…
Dear Gabriel!
I am here and you’re not alone. I can’t tell you how sorry and selfish I have been for the last couple of months by not taking time to visit and be here for you as often as I want to. I just wish that you could talk to me when I’m online, and ask me to shut up about my questions. Tell me how you are doing. You’re there helping everyone, it’s time for you to say it’s your turn. Make me understand that if things isn’t ok with you, give me a sign and I’ll know. My dear bro, things will calm down in my life, my own fear will go away as soon as I accept my new situation, and I will be here more. We will have our morning chat like we use to, I can’t tell you how much I lov e you for being you, Gabriel. Don’t let anyone hurt you,by words, writings or behavour. Be who you are,be strong for us. It’s ok to be sad, it’s ok to feel good. It’s ok to be *you*. That’s why we, your online friends out here, love you so much. So now matter how hard things gets, we’re behind you! Holding your hand too, as we are holding Sue’s and Sandee’s hand. Together we will climb the highest mountains together, we will hide under the carpet together. But in the end, we’re not alone. Remember that! No matter what we are and how we feel, we’re together. Love you Gabriel!
Faith is right…we love *YOU* & it will be okay as long as we stick together!
(((((((Gabriel)))))))
love you ((((((((((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))))))))))))))
love you (((((((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))))))))
Faith’s words are wonderful .. I think the same .. please reach out and hold on to your friends!
:wave: I want to thank you for your honesty on your site. Never stop being yourself and writing what you think and feel!!