This isn’t going to be long… we have lots of things we want to do/finish to day…and there is lots of e-mail we need to reply too… and relay at this time we’re not really doing to well after all that has been going on over the weekend and on here last week…
I know I said on Friday that I’d be back on Sunday night or Monday morning….but anyway I got back just now…
This weekend was a very difficult one… not just because of the funeral it self but because there were lots of people that came to it that we know from the past… many triggers…. I can’t really write about that at the moment… but even though we made it though the funeral and the reception afterwards we lots the grip somewhere and ended up in the hospital early Monday morning… It had been a while since we’ve been in the hospital over night because of SI-ing …maybe that is where we should be…. locked up and no key to let us out again…. no maybe not… but that’s really how I feel at the moment… too messed up for the outside world… too crazy
.. you will be getting better now ((((((((((((((((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))))))))))))))))) love you!
(((((((((Gabriel)))))))) You made it and it’s over now. Be proud of *you* and take one step at a time and everything will be fine bro. Still holding your hand from where I am, I hope you know that:-)
Love you and miss you!
Sometimes we feel like that too, the feeling that we are not fit for the outside world. It isn’t true: it’s more that the world we live in is far truer and perhaps more brutal then the one most people would like to believe in.
((( Gabriel )))
You did it… went thru heck and back this weekend and now it is a brand new day and things will be better for now on… Keep that in mind and put that negative energy away for a while. You are allowed to fall back once in a while you know and it is not crazy or anything. You & Crew have lots of people who believe in you and that love you very much my dear. I love you my dear and please take care of you… Because you are very important to me and many others…
Hugs from Montreal
Man, I dont know realy exactly what you are going through, but I know that you are here, that the H* has a time and place for being helpful, that you DONT belong locked up, gosh dude, like no way! Gab, life dont ever just start in to getting easy, but we all do keep getting better at living it and being strong and not letting perps, or the world either, win. You got the stuff in you, everyone there has, to rock n roll. Im here man, for whatever. *great big holding on and not letting go hugs* And I love you,
your pal, jules 😀
Just though you needed a great big virtual hug just about now! Love you :hug: