Sometimes, like right now, I wonder if it’s all worth it… “it” the battle of healing, struggling to live each day as it comes with all the emotional mood swings it gives me…. A battle of fighting urges of wanting to “feel” and after making one “wrong” choice, by giving in to those urges a feelings of shame, guilt and self-hatred overwhelms the mind…
I wonder… will it always be like this? …no answer… I want to believe there is hope and in a way I do… but there is no way of knowing it for sure… is there? …no answer…
.. it is worth it .. (((((((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))))))
.. again and again it is worth it! ..
.. we need to be forgiving towards ourselves too! .. the moment you do what you call ‘a wrong choice’ .. it’s already past .. let go of it .. let go of the past .. go on to the next step .. step by step .. that’s what I call ‘the path of the warrior’ ..
.. life is struggle .. everyone has another struggle .. but there is so much good to it too .. just go on ..
don’t let ‘a wrong choice’ block your way to the next good choices! .. just go on ..
love you!
it’s bloody well worth it, gabriel, you can’t expect it to be easy, but it’s worth it anyway!!!