For now this is all I can post….
I just had an appointment with my pdoc… I’m going back on antidepressants…
I haven’t been eating and I’ve lost a lot of weight… more than I should have for my height…
I am scared of “recovery” but I am also scared of killing myself
I don’t want to die…
I don’t want to be in a “looney bin” forever…
I want to be able to live with my wife and children…
I want to be able to wake up in the morning and like who I am…
I want to be able to “have a life” outside of the computer…
I want to lean how to like me for who and what I am…
I want to lean how to forget, forgive and/ or to live with my past instead of making my past my future…

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