Ever since I posted this post the top search words for this website has been “pro-ana” followed very closely by “pro-anorexia”, “pro-bulimia” and “pro-ED” I have also been getting many e-mails from young girls… they youngest was 13… asking :us: questions about “How to become ana”…. or how to get an ED”
I don’t look at myself as “pro-ED”… I’m not promoting an eating disorder. I’ve mentioned it a few times that I am a member of forums that by some people is referred to as “pro-ED” but to me those forums are more like a place where I can go to and speak up about my thoughts, wishes and fears without having to sensor myself. I’ve tried other type of forums like the forums at Something Fishy but found out it is not for me… I can’t be a part of something where I can’t speak freely…
The forums I’m a member of are not for people who want an eating disorder or look at them as a temporary diet… I’ve seen it many times where people/children come to these sites and think that having an eating disorder will “safe” them. Get real guys! Having an eating disorder causes more problems that you can imagine.
Girls/and guys who might read this… You don’t want an eating disorder!! Having an eating disorder is not just something you do for fun for a while and then drop just like that. This is like an addiction… your mind become obsessed with it and you an die from it or cripple yourself for life…
These are just a few things that are associated with Anorexia and Bulimia… Is this really what you want? and don’t tell me that you won’t experience these… If you want an eating disorder and you get your wish fulfilled this IS what you’ll get…
Dramatic weight loss in a relatively short period of time.
Wearing big or baggy clothes or dressing in layers to hide body shape and/or weight loss.
Obsession with weight and complaining of weight problems (even if “average” weight or thin).
Obsession with calories and fat content of foods.
Obsession with continuous exercise.
Frequent trips to the bathroom immediately following meals (sometimes accompanied with water running in the bathroom for a long period of time to hide the sound of vomiting).
Visible food restriction and self-starvation.
Visible binging and/or purging.
Use or hiding use of diet pills, laxatives, ipecac syrup (can cause immediate death!) or enemas.
Isolation. Fear of eating around and with others.
Unusual Food rituals such as shifting the food around on the plate to look eaten; cutting food into tiny pieces; making sure the fork avoids contact with the lips (using teeth to scrap food off the fork or spoon); chewing food and spitting it out, but not
swallowing; dropping food into napkin on lap to later throw away.
hiding food in strange places (closets, cabinets, suitcases, under the bed) to avoid eating (Anorexia) or to eat at a later time (Bulimia).
Flushing uneaten food down the toilet (can cause sewage problems).
Vague or secretive eating patterns.
Pre-occupied thoughts of food, weight and cooking.
Self-defeating statements after food consumption.
Hair loss. Pale or “grey” appearance to the skin.
Dizziness and headaches.
Frequent soar throats and/or swollen glands.
Low self-esteem. Feeling worthless. Often putting themself down and complaining of being “too stupid” or “too fat” and saying they don’t matter. Need for acceptance and approval from others.
Complaints of often feeling cold.
Low blood pressure.
Loss of menstrual cycle.
Constipation or incontinence.
Bruised or calluses knuckles; bloodshot or bleeding in the eyes; light bruising under the eyes and on the cheeks.
Perfectionistic personality.
Loss of sexual desire or promiscuous relations.
Mood swings. Depression. Fatigue.
Insomnia. Poor sleeping habits
Ih, I`m ana/mia and proud that I have made it this far!
But thank you for the site
I have been wanting an eating disorder for a long while now, I have lost 25 lbs. but i’ve stopped loosing weight recently, so i’ve decided to try an eating disorder. this site heled me very much! thank-you!
Hi,
um i was reading some of the comment like ” ive been wanting an eating disorder for awhile now and im going to try it now” and i just completely find this disturbing….once you start its soo hard to stop…ive been ana for some time now…ive been hospitalized several times for it because of fainting…or not weighing enough and many other things…including once the use of ipecac…thats something you NEVER want to go through.i just feel so bad for all these young people only 12 and 13 saying they WANT an ed…its not just something you can decide one day oh hey let me get an ed cause itll be fun sort of thing.They really just don’t understand what they’re getting theirselves into.im only 18 now and wish that i never started when i was 13.it’s crazy…and its something if you ever do have you need alot fo help to overcome.
-Krystal
i am feeling very fat and i want to start using laxatives to loose weight if just for a short while, ive tried every diet and exercise and i feel as if my boyfriend doesnt want me anymore because i weigh 145 now and when we met i weighed only 120 im 5’2 and fat. I dont know what to do
im 16, 5’11, 278 pounds, size 22………i would do anything to lose it…..im so unhappy…..i would just like some support…thats all…..its my first day………i dont plan on it just being for a little while…..i would gladly die of an ed….and be skinny for a little while than be fat and grose for the rest of my life….
i am 24 and have not been satisfied with my weight since i was 15. i had done the anorexic diet when i was 15 and weighed 92 pounds but my mother told me that if i lost anymore she would put me in the hospital. i now weigh 120 and am 5’1″ i want to get back down to 95-100 pounds. i would appreciate any advice.
I want to lose 28lbs. fast but i can’t seem to get the support I need from anybody!!!! Everyone is so super critical of my appearance ,though !!! I need help, support, and advice from people who understand the importance of being slim. Help!
Hi everyone!! Well… I just started checking out these pro-ana websites and I really like them – lots of support from girls/women like me. I am 5’5” and weigh 128 pounds. I am trying to get down to 110 but mid-february, maybe march? I have always been concerned about my weight but I finally feel like it is uncontrollable, I feel fat and ugly, unwanted even. Two of my best friends used to be mia and I was their one friend who helped them turn away from it – now I feel like a hypocrite. No one knows and its weird, I tell my friends everything… I dunno? I guess I just wanted to talk to other ana girls, curious ya know!
For several years I have had a mind battle with food. I am really insecure about my weight, and I have developed really weird habits when it comes to food. Lately, it is an obsession. I have started to hide weight loss pills and eating less and less. This isn’t the first time. It has been like this since I was 14. Every time someone says I have an ed I deny it. I need some help. I want to give in so bad, but I am scared that if I do, I will get swallowed up. I can’t do that to my parents. I keep telling my self how pleased I would be if I were just a little skinnier. I am 5’11” and around 135 lbs. I don’t know if I want an ed, but I don’t know if I have the will power to run away from it.
Hi,
yeah, im a guy, and im MIA. i think its sad that some of the people on this site think that they “want to start an eating disorder”. i started ana when i was 15 and it lasted for about 6 months. then the urge to purge hit me and ive been mia for about 10 months. i cant stop and i love thew empty feeling after i puke up my dinner. im a 17 year old man at 5’6 and i weigh 116. im proud. i want to lose more, but my girlfriend is worried. im getting really thin and i like it, my hip bones are beautiful. but she says they dig into her and she hates it. i still think im fat and i wont stop untill i reach 0. love you all and thanks for the support. time to do the B & P!
Jason
you guys/girls are crazy, you dont need a eating disorder, u just need to be happy, why dont just eat when your hungry, get some porno videos magazines, or somthink then you will feel randy, then go up town find someone u fancy and shag them, thats all u need to do u will need to eat 4 5 meals a day to keep your strength up for more shagging, hope that helps?
take care,
p.s. remember your a “person” just like everyone else, if u dont value yourself its no wonder u got a eating disorder.
Hi, im about 5’10 tall and weigh 63kg however i still feel un happy about my weight as im a dancer i need to look good for my comps! i want to loose weight but dont want to become sick, but i want to become 55kg. please help!!!!!
hi, ive been bulimic and anorexic for nearly a year now, and its got me down, never EVER try it, id rather be 20 lb heavier and happy than puttin myself through hell to stay thin…lots of love
Ive been bullied alot about my weight and it has really got me down. I am 5ft 8 and i weigh 12 and a half stone and i am only 14yrs old. Ive tried exercising and dieting but i cannot find anythingthat works. Ive even come to the point of swallowing bathroom products just so i can be sick. Please help because i know i am harming myself but i want to lose weight and it’s hard.
hello ppls…im 13 and about 4’8” yea short i kno! im perfectly fine with my weight its just this tummy i have on the bottom and it makes me look pregnant!! i hate it help me make it go away i tried workin out i tried everything i cood but it just woodnt go away. ive tried the anerexia thing n it hurts n i feel sick all the time and im always lieing to my mother that i have a lunch or i can just buy something and i take my dinner in my room n throw it out i dont want to hurt me or her ne more…i dont wanna lie ne more. help me plz
Hi-im nicola and im anorexic?bulimic!
Its not a bad thing,I can do wateva i want to loose wight including being bulimic!
I admit their is a point at which you should stop but if your not there keep going!
Being skinny wont change your life but it will make you happy!
Im 5″7″ and i weigh at the moment about 9 stone 9 pounds!
which is average and i admit im not fat but im not thin either…not yet!
cya
xx
well im 17 years old, 5’3” short i do believe and i weigh 140 lbs im quite muscular but i feel fat all at that see i barely have any fat on me i know but i always seem to work out like crazy i have been looking up websites as i started my health class and i have been reading the pros and cons of anerexia bulimia i see how harmfull it is and i cant seem to end it i dont feel comfortable talking to n e one not my friends or n e one of that sort, i am a well liked teen in my school in fact im friends with just about everyone of my peers and they tell me all the time how much they wish they were like me but i still compare myself to be prolonged to getting what i see to be skinny, i keep just about everyone of my friends shut out of my life lately and i fool them bout my nutritional based body figure… im quite energetic and always keep my friends attention in school especially at lunch see i crack jokes so i laugh more than i eat and this way i thought i had it covered with my eating disorder i would intentionally lay in bed in the mornin jsut so i can say i didnt have time to eat and say i forgot my lunch money when i keep it so i can buy a pack of cigs after school i figure if i dont eat much just rational it make sure i take my vitamins and minerals and replace foods with oranges or grapes and goto practice and come straight home to sleep to skip dinner and id be fine but lately i have had been getting head aches and i cant find myself to fall asleep i often lay in bed and cry and i dont knwo why i look up signs and symptoms of eating disorders and depression and to be honest i fit every catagory i used to dress nice and slim and as of 2 years ago i have been wearing sweatshirts and baggy clothes and on occations i show off my body in skirts that i would never ever wear just to keep the attention going i tease just about everyone and act concerned with my firends that appear to be anerexic and say i could never do that but as i sit im a hypocrit about it and i do everything i tell ppl i could never do… when im with my friends i eat a lot sometimes to make up for me starving myself ppl can see me to eat so much one day just to keep on fooling them by the end of the day i feel guilty of what i have eated and i often lay in bed and do sit ups push ups and wear sweatshirts with layers of shirts along with it to help me sweat more to lose the weight and also drink tons of water and stepp on the scale my family has no clue i fooled them but to be honest im only fooling myself for girls that think they r healthy i think not i know what im doing sounds healthy by taking my vitamins but as i have been doing this for just 6 months now i have found myself getting headaches, my skin is easily bruised now and i jsut feel less myself i have had 2 great boyfriends this year that i really wanted to stay with but found myself losing interest and purposely ruining it by cheating on them just because i dont feel they deserve me and vise versa… girls i ask u please dont goto this way i mean yes u lose weight but if i could take it back i would jsut go straight to eating right and exercising to build endurance not to lose calories or fat calories and through the diet pills i have been taken they are causing me anerexia to get worse bc it speeds the weightloss but the min ur off them u gain it back fast
hey, peps i have tried 2 starve myself before and it is not a very good idea i nearly became bulimic and it isnt very nice. u feel really ill if u want any advice i maybe able to help just email me and let m now wot u want help on? im only 13 nearly 14 and i weigh 8 and a half stone and i feel ok like that!!! plz dont put your family and friends down like i did if u wanna chat just email me love allways lauren xxxx
Gosh, one thing i have never thought about before in all my 14 years of ana/mia/ana; is look for a sight to discuss it. In fact before 3 years ago it was a total secret(only other person knowing was an old b/friend waaay across the atlantic in Canada). I find it hard to talk about, but seriously, there can’t be much that I haven’t experianced in that time- including actual death experiances, living on drips for potassium, being sectioned under the Mental Health Act, having absolutly no say in my life, be forced to lie in bed for month’s on end- only be moved by some stupid “carers”- not even allowed to roll over of my own accord, STIFLING heat- no open windows-, force feeding with no movement afterwoulds is one of the most uncomfortable situations( i became the master of deceit). If i refused to eat i would be bullied by the *worst* nurses- the terror after leaving those crappy establishments was just as bad. Doctors hammering on my door for not keeping up appointments, happens 3 times and i get thrown back in- felt more like a prison sentance.
I weighed 21kg, (about 47 lbs), probably why the felt the need to take me in=P BUT I remember very little of the whole thing with regards to how I looked and axact pain- just that both where pretty unbearable…I became very sneaky in hospital, heh ,I was in there long enough, things like sneaking out, going to my bathroom post hour monitoring after meals, which didn’t help with end of week weigh in’s.
Anyway, I won’t go on any more, prol bored you all to death allready. For the record though, I didn’t get better in those shoddy places- devised a trick to run away and did, cause I don’t believe an institution can possibly improve upon nature. Sure, you can put on weight, but you can’t influence a mind once it is focused, and has been for at least 10 years beforehand.
I’m 23 yrs old and this desease has burdened me for far too long for me to ever want to promote it in any way, but at the same time, for me to condone it would be hypocritical because it still haunts me physically(not as much though- up to 5 stone , or 70 lbs), and mentally. I am a manic depressive, have the most BIZAARE sleep patterns- no sleep for 2-3 days, then sleep 16-20 hours; suffer chronic hypokalemia, not had a single god damn period for near enough 6 years, and have practically no pals.
Life’s hard, but like the rest of you, we battle on. Nobody’s perfect, and, well, this must be our ‘imperfection’.
thanx for reading,
terri
uk
I am 17 and I now weigh about 118. I just got accepted to all my UCs as a pre-med major and I currently have a GPA of 4.6. I have everything a person would want. A loving family, a nice life style and a blessed future laying there for me. For years I have wanted to lose weight and I just can’t. I want to go anorexic so bad yet something keeps stopping me and I don’t know what. I want to be size one agains so badly and I want to look nice when I belly dance. I look so healthy and I hate it. I am so tired of being normal. All I want from myself is to drop down to 105. Can anyone help me?
hi this is the first time ive ever been to a site like this. im 16 im about 5;9 and i hate to say it but i weigh 160 pounds. ive never been able to do anything to myself ive always really really wanted to but something stops me. no one understands how fat i feel i feel useless like a blob can anyone help me start???? it would mean alot to me to be thinner
hi!
I have been both ana and bel for 6 years. i am 5’7 and i weigh 108. at my lowest point i weighd 90. i was so sick. now,i eat better than i used to, and i havn’t thrown up my food in months.(thanks to my boyfriend and all his support) even when i was 90 pounds i felt like a nasty blop. i thought i was fat! if you have an ed YOU ARe SICK!!!!! why do all you girls want to be sick? there are ways of becomming thinner without starving and throwing up.Please reconsiter!!!!!!!
I am 23 after having my daughter 2 1/2 years ago I gained 20 lbs. and I was ok with it…kinda. But then I quit smoking and now I am 157 5’3. I feel like I am dissappointing my family. I feel gross I have tried diet pills, and I cannot make myself stay away from food or boemia. I dont knwo what to do I just keep getting bigger and I need it to stop..I dont recognize myself I used to be 100 and now I am JUMBO. Can someone help?!?!?!?
hi, im really nervous about writing to this site. I am a dancer and two years ago i was 5’3″, 90lbs. Now I am 5’5″ and 125 lbs. I shouldn’t have gained that much weight just by growing two inches. I want to get down to 100, but every time i think about it, i get nervous and it makes me want to eat more. Sometimes i throw up but it doesn’t help me lose weight. Can someone help me to do it right? OR is anorexia more effective? What about diet pills? Please!! I work out all the time and never drop a pound!!
Look everyone, it doesn’t matter how you look or how small or big you are. We were all made different by God. If everyone was little skinny things than the world would be boring. You are all beautiful the way you are. Don’t let others get you down, they’re just insecure in themselves so they look to others to make themselves feel better. CURVES ARE BEAUTIFUL! so be happy you have them. I must admit i’ve tried vomiting before to lose weight, it just made me feel like crap. When i ate healthy and began dancing and lost weight, I felt like I had actually achieved something. Please reconsider if you want an ED. My sister was bulimic. I was the one who caught her. I tried to get her to stop, but she didn’t. After suffering a heart attack at the age of 19 she died… I loved her so much….if only she’d stopped…Please listen to me and rethink. You really are beautiful just the way you are…
wuts a ed?….n e ways im 13 5ft 3 or 4 in and 160 lbs for the ppl who say not to b ana……i understand wut ur sayin but…… it hurts SOOO much when ppl call me fat my friends that r girls dont judge me some ppl think i weigh 130 lbs but the guyz……they judge more…… they dont say it to my face but they tell my friends …. my friends are all really pretty and have bfs and can share each others clothes and where bikinis and boys like em… but no one wants me…… i want to be able to have that experience with my firneds and the boys but it wont happen unless i do this! it will b easy to stop my older sister was ana and after she reached her weight she wanted she stopped right there and is as healthy as could be …… ive tried starvin myself for 2 days now and lost 3 lbs im gonna keep on going bcuz as much as i kno it could kill me someday…… id rather live a short happy life then a long miserable life and god wants me to be happy n e advice would be greatly appreciated
Hey all you girls shouldn’t even think of anerexia or belimia as a solution to all of your problems with weight. You are just giving up and you need to be stonger than that. Have faith that you will lose weight some day, it doesnt happen over night. Be happy with the you on the inside, that is all that matters. Being skinny isn’t everything, having confidence in yourself is. Think about what your family would go through if you killed yourself doing this. Killing yourself would be selfish. I just think that you girls need to think about the people around you too, not just yourself. You are also affecting the young people in the world by saying these things. To be honest i made myself throw up when i was 13 about 3 times and that was it. Why would anyone want to do that to themselves. There are people out there in pain because they have health problems they can’t prevent. I am just trying to help you girls from doing something you will regret down the road.
Hi this is my first time on this site. I ant to thin like all my friends I am 20 years old and weigh about 155 I wan to weigh at least 100-105. I want someone to help me acheive this goal for myself. it will mean a lot to me if someone can help me. Both of my sisters are really skinny and I am the fat slob of the family. so PLEASE someone help
I am 21 now. I have had an eating disorder thoughts since I was in third grade. I have stopped eating and be throwing up since seventh. You people do not understand what an eating disorder is. It is not something you can make yourself have. It is something that just happens over time. Trust me crying night after night is not fun. Thinking of nothing else but food is not a life. I should know. I am 21 now and still throwing up. Still on fasts. Still having the constant fights with my husband about eating or not. Trust me, when all I want to do in this stage of my life is to have children, but I can’t in fear of hurting it, by not eating. Is the greatest disappointment to myself and to my family. All I ask is for one of you to stop and think of what you are doing. And to you true anorexics, you are thinking right now that I am some fat bitch that wants to stop you from becoming thin. I have news for you, I weigh 97 pounds and guess what I am not any happier from when I weighed 130.