– I feel scared…
– I feel lost…
– I feel confused…
– I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing anymore…
– I feel as I’ve lost the feeling of control I had towards food…
– I feel more urges to replace the ED with something that in my oppinion is worse… like self-harm, and it’s a lot harder to fight aginst those urges… and I find myself scanning the room for usefull “tools”…
– I feel like I’m not recovering for myself or because I want to.. but for other people who want me to…
– I feel I want to give up on recovery but I don’t want to dissapoint the people that want me to recover…
– When I’m eating I feel like a trator to myself…
– I feel that I must hide from the world and not try anymore…
…but I wish I could “turn around” and feel the opposide of those feelings… I try…but I can’t…
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Today-ish In History
- 2015: Day 7 - EC Surgery
- 2014: Memories
- 2004: nothing really...
- 2003: nothing... that's me
- 2002: Few words....
- 2001: Multicolored
- 1999: Suicidal thoughts
be determined. be tough. let yourself know where you stand–for real. this could make all the difference–“where are you” …really get to knowing yourself–feeling your position in life– where do you stand now…why do you do the things you do? what is going to happen if you blow off all of your unusual eating habits or self injuring? pack up your thoughts and head out on a road to self-discovery. leave behind your fears like the bully from childhood that you can finally tower over. tell those fears who is boss and turn your back. start someplace new…it’ll be exciting. enjoy yourself–YOURSELF for real, as you really are. tell yourself “enough!” and stomp a foot–anything for motivation…i’m doing it–wanna try it too?
love you–spider
i just posted something here for you Gabriel, and it still says that there is “0” comments–so i’m posting this one…just to see if the number will change cuz i really wanted to tell you what i did in my previous post and wanted you to know it’s there–love ya–spider