Later this afternoon my Aunt, Maria will be coming here for a visit 🙂 Yay! I haven’t seen her (properly) since last Christmas although she did come for my fathers funeral but we didn’t really have much time together then…. and better yet… this time she will be staying at my house!!
Another thing… I haven’t SIed at all today… not even a little bit. I have to admit that I do have very mixed feelings about it… and yes I may still be feeling “safe” from Wednesday as I’m still reminded of that every-time I move in spite of painkillers… but I need to give this a try… and aunt Maria is going to help me with that… I will do everything that I can to help myself and her to help me on this…. Those are big words… I’ve wanted this before…tried this before…but…. I need to believe that it will work this time…
(((((((((((Gabriel)))))))))) try to be as courageous and as honest and as open as you can… to talk about what she made you go through… and to ask questions to your aunt.
Don’t be afraid to hurt anyone with speaking about this… because what really hurt much more all those who love you, is, when you have to hurt yourself.
Try to look at the past of your family, your ancestors, at your mother’s background, where she grew up…
Why did she get so screwed up? What made her project her idea of a
I HOPE YOU DANCE –by Lee Ann Womack:
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you’ll give fate a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they’re worth taking
Lovin’ might be a mistake
But it’s worth making
Don’t let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you’ll give fate a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)
…love ya Gabriel! ~spider
Gabriel YES u gotta believe you can do better each time to help urself, u have to keep trying, keep trying… Ur friends are here for you and remember, we all love you.