i’ve been up most of the night…. i did go to bed but i couldn’t stay there… i couldn’t sleep… i was in a bad mood… irritated by myself… and lack of accomplishments…
then i logged on my computer… i know that it often means that i will end up staying up the whole night, probably doing something to myself that I shouldn’t do so normally i just stay in bed… or at least stay in the bedroom…writing something maybe…
i felt alone…abandoned somehow… i felt bad about myself… guilt… hatred or anger maybe… but then all of a sudden all those feelings were taken away by a very special “stranger” and her words…a stranger named Chris… I don’t know… maybe there is a connection… something that I can’t explain… or maybe i’m just wishing there is a connection… but what ever it was …it was worth it…
…so thank you Chris… both of you….
