I’m sick… cold, sinus/ear infection fever, headaches, chest pains… no energy… and I’ve been switching a lot… and i’m cranky….
Someone emailed me… asking me if I really have an ED… and if I wasn’t just seeking attention… tricking people into feeling sorry for me… to care about me…
… yes I’m diagnosed with an eating disorder… but how the hell should I know if I really have and ED or not…. I’m 6’1 and at the moment i weigh 118 lbs… I’ve never weighted more than 140 – 150… 144 – 189 is what is recommended for someone at my height…
I don’t like any food… I can’t even sense taste of food… I don’t starve myself too “look better”… …I don’t starve myself for the purpose of being “prefect”… …I don’t starve myself because i fear being “fat”… …I don’t feel fat…but sometimes I feel as if i am too big for the world… I’m visible… …I starve or…. eat and purge for the same purpose I SI… I do it for the pain… because that is what I deserve… and yes i probably am just tricking people in to caring about me… if I wasn’t …i wouldn’t be writing about all of this all over the place… right?
people can make incredibly stupid remarks sometimes.. *hugs*
To NOT have any problems and then to see a person with problems that your never think about and dreamed about having to deal with should make a person stop and think about how lucky they really are and then trying to reach out and touch and share and feel and help the person that knows not that feeling of being a rest with themself…Some People are just plain insensetive! Theirs will be to come..for being that way…
Sorry you are sick and hope you get to feeling better..
Luv ya, Gabe, that´s all…
Hi Gab,
Havent chatted with u for long time. U’ve always been in away mode… I hope you’re doing fine…
I do agree with Chrissi and The Friend, some ppl can b really insensitive and bitchy (who start spreading rumors). Those ppl “THOUGHT” they “KNOW” what you are going thru, they ASSUME. And you know what ASSUME means ?
Ass-U-me : making an ass outta you and me.
Gab i hope you will remain strong. The most important people in your life are friends and family who truly love you for who you are.
We all hope to see you happy, well and healthy. =)
(((((((((((((((hugss))))))))))))
feel better, gabe. and don’t worry about what the idiots of the world think…
*feel better soon!* –*hugs!*
love, spider
I wish I could be like you. It must be wonderful to be six foot one and only weigh 118. I wish I could be you. I am so fat, I hat my body. I’m five foot ten and weigh 175. I’m disgusting and ugly.
Please send me advice and courage to lose weight. PLEASE!!