There are certain posts in this journal where seem to make people think that this site is a place where to start a public debate of some sort or which make people think that this is a website where to look for support of many kinds…
I receive loads of e-mail everyday… Many of those e-mails are from people who have been to my website and read through it… some for days… I do appreciate people taking their time to read what I have written …and especially those that show me the respect of letting me know that they did so… Also I don’t mind messages where people share their story with me… or even comment on mine. It doesn’t matter if it is in a form of support or criticism…and everything there in between…
Now… the main reason for this post… It has been brought to my attention recently in an e-mail that I am a “selfish bastard” because I don’t take the time to reply to my e-mail… I really don’t take this very personally as I do know how much time i spend on writing and replying to e-mails that are sent to me by total strangers… who just happened to surf to my website…
I have to pick and choose to whom I reply and yes it may well be that I am a “selfish bastard” because I don’t reply to certain kind of messages… or because I have removed e-mail addresses that have been left in comments on certain entries… where people are asking for others to contact them with information on how they can commit a slow suicide…
Public debate is fine with me as long as it is on an intellectual level… even if people get angry and/or express their anger… it’s fine with me… but please choose your words wisely… This is my house.. and I want to be able to choose the color of the walls my self… I do not delete comments or posts from this journal lightly… and in fact I have only had to do that with comments for one entry so far…
As much as I wish I could help all of you in your sufferings… and take them all away …whatever the problem might be… I can not do that… and in some cases I find it morally unacceptable to give advises that are requested… Just because I write about certain issues of my own… it does not make me an expert on any of kind… This website is only my way of helping my self and when it comes down to making it through the day I am in every way just as confused as the next person…
gab…think we can get in touch again, please? i really need people right now, and you’re one of the last ones that i trust…so, please.
Hi Gabriel,
I am one of those people who recently found your journal, and has been very engrossed in reading it. I apologize for not commenting till now. I know from reading that you like that, yet I found it difficult to comment to posts long past and needed to wait till I had read it all. I hope it did not worry you, unduly.
I can’t remember how I found your diary, but most likely it was linked to from another DPer’s journal.
I read a lot of DPer’s journals, obsessively. I read them because (from my pov) multiples have the most intelligent, compelling, passionate, emotional lives to share.
I also read them to try to understand myself better.
Please keep on sharing, as long as it is working for “you”. Don’t worry about what others want or need you to do for them. You are doing more than enough in the sharing.
As always, I wish I had the power to absolve the pain for you, for others, for myself. All I can do, however, is listen and acknowledge that you are being heard and that I think what you say is important.
And I thank you for letting me be a part of it.
Take good care. You are worthy of life. You are worthy of love. Never forget that.
CV
It is a nice way to look at it as respectful when people let you know they read your journal..made me smile