my previous post

I’ve had some time to think… and i’m feeling a bit better… more calm … I know I can’t give any explanation of what happened… it just happened… and i have to live with that and try to move on… I also know that I can’t promise that something like this won’t happen again… or that I won’t change my mind later for one reason or another… but I want to try to get better… and I know by doing that I won’t be able to avoid some of the bumps in the road… and for each of those bumps, I can’t be sure of my reactions but I can try to deal with each of them as they appear… If they make my fall I’ll just have to try to stand up again even though at some point I don’t want to…