Ok i admit i’m a survey freak… I stole this from one of the forums i visit regluarly… already posted it there but I wanted it here as well…
35 years ago i was 2. I don’t remember anything about it but I moved from the US to the country I live now
30 years ago i was 7. not many memories other than playing the piano, being tortured, raped and other ugly stuff…*shudder*
25 years ago i was 12 and I was obsessed about death, had been for at least 2 years before… (not about dying though) and well it’s pretty much the same as at age 7…
20 years ago i was 17 i went away from home, alone for the first time in my life to go to school also for the first time in my life… didn’t do very well at first on the academic side but once my reading/writing problems where discovered i did fine… though girls and parties was all i really wanted
15 years ago i was 22 had been married for almost a year… and we had twins (well they were born on April 16th) We were living very close to my parents house… We could have been living somewhere else but Sunna loved my parents… she didn’t know what was going on with me and my mother even though i spent a lot of time over at her house… but Sunna believed that was because of my career… nothing more…
10 years ago i was 27 ugh well I was pretty much always drunk or on drugs… and i was a really bad/abusive husband to my wife… and probably spending more time at my mother’s than with my own family… we had 4 children…and expecting our 5th…later that year i did an attempt to recover from my drinking/drug abuse… went through 3 months of rehab… in August i flunked again when my house burnt down and killed my 4 children and my mother…and was pretty much just drinking heavily and doing drugs for the next 2-3 years
5 years ago i was 32. I was back with my wife…had cleaned up and pretty much living a normal life… or as close to normal I’ve ever been in my life… I had two jobs… one teaching music at the local elementary school and the other giving private piano lessons to kids… I miss that job horribly…
3 years ago i was 34. about a year before I’d started having panic attacks (again). I wasn’t sleeping or eating and I was also flashbacks…. and i was heavily into self injury… and pretty much in and out of hospital… especially after my sister Maria died in March that year… I felt responsible for her death… I still do in a way… She was suffering from injuries from an accident I caused by driving drunk 4 years before her death… which left her with severe brain damage and lots of complications because of that…
1 year ago i was 36. April 3rd 2002: I was in the middle of a public journal fight… someone who claimed to be a psychology student and know all about being multiple… and well she was pretty much being a stupid bitch… her site isn’t at the original location anymore but I replied to her post on my site here. A few months later this girl actually emailed me and apologized for the whole incident… I admit it was a big surprise to me but I accepted and as far as I know she still reads my journal for some weird reason…
6 months: Pretty much the same as it is now… I was having physical problems related to my eating disorder that kinda scared me at the time… I decided to try to get better but uhm I’ve changed my mind quite a few times since then…
yesterday: I lost control and SIed…pretty badly… which i haven’t done for a while now… Then after we got home from the ER I pretty much spent the whole day on the computer or at least until Sunna got home…
tomorrow will probably be pretty much the same as yesterday and any other day…

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