…I didn’t sleep to well last night
…I have a bad headache atm
…I am terrified of failing but i’ve done that so many times in the past…
…I say i’m going to get better…and really work on thinks… but after a while i give up …give in to my self-destructive thoughts… and i fail…
…I hate the tube in my nose
…I don’t want to go through another doc appt like the one i had yesterday…
…Apparently my body is screwed up inside… from abuse and starvation… so i’ll probably have to be on tube feedings for a while…
…My doc says I have perment organ damage because of the ED… he tried to explain but i didn’t understand or wasn’t listening all that well either… *shrug*
…I’m pretty stupid when it comes to all that stuff… always have been… and it freaks me out for some reason…
…My doctor asked me to consider something that I think is called Gastrostomy Tube or G-Tube… basically it means that the tube is placed directly through the skin into the stomach
…I’m thinking about it… at least it might help with the flashbacks….
…I got a (real/snail mail) letter from Meg 🙂 :hug:
…I’m going to send one back to her

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