Dam-it!! I know this is crazy…
I know I shouldn’t think about this…
I know I shouldn’t do this
…but i’m obsessed… I can’t stop thinking about this…
I know I can die because of this…. but i’m probably too stupid to care…
BUT I DO CARE?!
I’ve been close to my death before… i have stood in front of it so many times… most of which “it” had my cooperation… where I’ve wanted to die… In the past I don’t think I’ve ever been afraid of dying… I’ve convinced myself that what has kept me alive all these years is my desire of not wanting to hurt another person… yeah it sounds strange doesn’t it? …coming from someone like me…. who has in fact been hurting other people through his own self-abuse…
The fact is that I know how it feels like to lose someone I love…but I don’t know how it is to have someone you love willingly hurting one self…
I know that is no excuse… I know this sounds selfish… I know I’m not perfect….
BUT DAM-IT! I am… I truly am scared for myself now… and i keep thinking that maybe… this has occurred to me …too late…
*hugs* I don’t know what to say but here’s a hug *hugs*
*hugs*
HUGS.
i luv u gabez
*hugs*
It’s not too late. You now know that it is serious, please please do something about it..I know you can.
take care of yourself, please. you are so worth all the love that you recieve. *hugs.*
it’s not too late….don’t let go…
ya know, gabriel, i follow your site and your life, choosing this “ana” slanted site to read and to follow, [there are so so many]
as i feel that there is a wonderfull Old Soul, here!
–that you DO care, care about yourself, others, and life!
so Heal and try to live an Incredible life!
freestone
Weep not, child, Weep not, my darling, With these kisses let me remove your tears, The ravening clouds shall not long be vitorious, They shall not long possess the sky, they devour the stars only in apparition, Jupiter shall emerge, be patient, watch again anouther night, the Pleiades shall emerge, They are immortal, all those stars both silvery and golden shall shine out again, The great stars and the little ones shall shine out again, they endure, The vast immortal suns and the long-enduring pensive moons shall again shine. ~Walt Whitman~
I care too and I don’t want you to die and neither does Ang. Please do whatever you can to get through this {{{{hugs}}}}
Gabriel,
‘Member me? (I think I scared you once by making some comment about wanting to kill your wife and marry you…my german ancestry makes me have a whaked sense of humour sometimes so I hope you didn’t actually take me seriously. )
This is my first time really looking through the Lunchbox forums and I was really happy to see your name there, since I haven’t seen you at TF.
I just wanted to let you know that I really admire you as an artist (from what I’ve heard of your music) and as a person and that I really do hope that keep going with your treatment and that you can have moments of happiness and serenity, like you deserve. Moments where you can just laugh with your wife and your kids and not have to think about guilt or your own mortality.
:heart: laura
LAURA
*big squishy hug*
ofcourse I remember you!!!!!
I still go to TF but I lurk there…and i guess i just don’t lurk there all that much to be noticed… but i haven’t seen you around there I’ve missed you btw
Lunchbox is pretty much my “home” now… i know it’s not TF but I really hope you can stick around… pretty please 😀