losing it

made a new layout for this journal… but i don’t have enough concentration to set it up right now…. i’m feeling a very strong need to SI right now… and so far it has helped… but i’m too tired to do anything more right now… even too tired to get what i need to SI… to shut down the voices in my head…
I can’t talk about what’s going on inside my head… i just can’t… i don’t want to think about it… i just want it to go away… i want her to go away…