He takes a deep breath and type: “hi” even add a yellow smiley to it and hit enter.
…a second later someone at the other end replies with the same hi and the same yellow face…. and asks…”how are you doing?”
He want so much to tell the truth… but instead he lies: “i’m ok, you?”
“I’m fine thank you”… she replies… and he can feels his anxiety level rise because now he can’t think of anything more to say… and he get this overwhelming feeling of inadequacy… of worthlessness….
He feels totally alone.
He feels trapped in silence …trapped inside his crazy chaotic head…
….and no matter how he tries to brake free from it, he fails…
…he fails again… and again
love…you’re not alone…last night I spent 3 hours staring at a phone..staring at the messages people left me while the away message was up..
I do’nt know what help it is to know you’re not alone…but that is what I have to offer..
That’s how I feel about leaving comments on people’s blogs…I would like to say something but I think it will sound stupid so I don’t write anything!
I was wondering how to contact you to get permission for your password site.
maybe hi how are you is all that needed to be said.
I would have added a ((smooch)) though, because you deserve it and you are very smoochable.
“sometimes silence is perfectly acceptable” quote from my mother.
the only solution to failure is to try again…no matter how many times it takes. but you know that.