I had an entry all written out and ready to post… but… sometimes i feel as I’m just too abnormal …too crazy …too something…
I cannot put what’s going on inside my head into meaning full sentences… not even a meaningless sentence for that matter… I tried to write down some things that are floating around in my head… and yes I was able to do that to a point… but what I wrote is not something that I would ever post on here… not even in a password protected or a friends only journal… and it’s defiantly not something that I would show my wife or even my therapist…
It’s happening more and more… getting more and more difficult to put my thoughts out of my head and somewhere…anywhere….
Just wondering why you feel you cannot tell even your therapist. (If you can’t tell your therapist, who can you tell?)
But do you find that the act of writing it down helps you to organize it? I get the impression that writing it down leaves you even more stymied.
I hope you work it out; I have always found that writing it down — even in a draft post that is later deleted — seems to make me feel better. I tend to sort my thoughts at the keyboard anyway.
…they’ll come back… your thoughts and your writing… it gets hard every now and then– communication… but it is always just misplaced, never lost forever. give it time. maybe you just need to rest a while and collect yourself, recouperate. but i am confidant that things will become clearer.
peace ~spider