Well I just closed my old journal… but because my sister is an angel and got me this domain so… I’m far from gone… I’m just moving my journal here because I haven’t felt comfortable posting at the old one for quite some time now…
There are many reasons that i didn’t feel comfortable there anymore…Some that I don’t care to discuss here at this time… but one being the fact that the traffic to this site is increasing… some traffic is good but a lot of it makes me feel uncomfortable… especially when I see increased traffic from my own country…

There are also lots of people coming there who (think they) know me in real life and that didn’t help at all… some of them being kids/children (who at one time where my students)….and they have been rather annoying lately…

Since I started doing this for me …and me only… I felt it was best to do something about that…. and when my sister suggested this option… to move on to another address without leaving a link on the old journal… I jumped at it…. I’m quite sure some people out there feel this is highly dramatic of me but i don’t really care about that at this moment… Like I said I’m not doing this (journaling/writing) for anyone else than myself…

Another reason is that I feel that I need to live up to a certain standard or an image that my visitors have of me… I am in no way an important person who has something great to give to the world… I am not good at putting my thoughts down in writing and an entry like this one takes quite a bit of my time to write mostly due to a reading/writing disorder I’ve had as far as i can remember… and possibly made worse by possible mild brain damage later in my life with drug abuse… which doesn’t help to get whatever is going on inside my head on the outside… either by a spoken nor written word…

I thought about another option… but over the last couple of months I’ve been thinking about closing that site down and go back to offline/paper journaling… but i really don’t like writing the old fashion way…and besides my hand writing is very crappy and sometimes i have problems reading it myself…

When I’ve thought about this ….in the past at least…I always end up thinking that if i do take it down I won’t have a whole lot to do all day… because as it is… i spend a great deal of time working on this site as well as my other websites. That might change while i’m IP though… but this website stuff is one of the very few things i know how to do… in my own opinion… fairly decently and without too much screwing up…

I have another online journal at livejournal… I’ve been posting there a little but not as much as I’ve needed to… It’s not fancy looking like this one… and well I don’t like it all that much because of it… I don’t feel it’s *mine* if that makes sense…

One option I thought about was to password protect the whole domain… but I really hate passwords with passion and so when i sent my sister an email about this… a long rant/whine… she came up with this option… 🙂

Have i told you that my sister is my angel? 😀