Yes that’s right, I guess I’m back… I don’t know if this exact moment is a better time to be back or not… but this is what I want to do at the moment…

I have to admit, I never really left anywhere as I have been able to get online since I went IP, but due to a heavy traffic this site was getting… especially from lost souls coming here through search engines…Google especially… and contacting me for lots of different reasons… I felt it was for the best to put a lock on the door for a while.

I haven’t decided anything yet but there are specific entries in my journal that attract traffic and attention that I don’t really want to deal with anymore… and that is the only main reason why I decided to close this journal when I did… as I knew I would have a much less time on my hands than I did at home…

Now when I finally decided to “get back” to this journal I thought about just deleting the trouble makers…and that would be the end of it… which would obviously be the easiest way out if this …right?

Well those who know me know I hate the thought of deleting and/or editing an entry that I’ve already posted here… So far I think I have deleted one entry and edited maybe one or two (not counting editing bad links or broken images etc)…. I know this may sound silly to a lot of people but for me each and every entry has a personal purpose…

For a stranger that drops by…. most ….if not all… of them may not look like much… even to me they usually don’t at the time they were posted… But the way I look at this is that each and every entry …or at least almost….in this journal tells a story of the moment/day it’s posted on… and that means a great deal to me…. someone who is not always walking around with a clear head and memory cells turned on…

Although I didn’t exactly stop blogging altogether for those two months or so… maybe I needed a brake from this site… somewhere more quiet, maybe… In the months before this journal had become more of a chore for me than it was supposed to… I felt that I “just had to write” something/anything because that’s what everybody else wanted …even if I didn’t really want to or have anything to say. …and not to mention replying to all the emails and instant messages/requests I was getting, which felt at times very overwhelming and draining…

I’ve had time to think about this a lot while I’ve been on this brake… and for a while there I wasn’t sure if I should continue doing this at all or not… but I’m still here…

But this time on my own terms… This journal (and my inbox) will be for me first, second, third…