I wonder what’s up with me lately… I wake up and feel physically fine… I’ve been awake for about 5 to 6 (7 tops) and then it’s like my head falls asleep on me…. my hands gets shaky… i totally lose all concentration of what I’m doing… and other things… but and all of this makes my mood change and i become incredibly grumpy and irritated by everything and everyone around me… including myself… and i hate that… not to mention this making my day way too short….but btw they were too short before…

It doesn’t help to lay down and try to rest for a bit… it doesn’t help to try to find something totally different to do… nothing seems to work… and well this makes me totally unable to write anything in here …or elsewhere… that makes sense….

In other news… i was able to go home on Saturday and Sunday… but i had to come back here to sleep… because “I can’t be trusted out there” …better than not being allowed out at all i guess…. but I’ll have to write about that later…or maybe not…