I don’t have many choices left…
… i can go home…give up…and just continue to be the self destructive me there until my wife gets sick of me and throws me out
… i can stay here and refuse to cooperate… until they throw me out…
or i can cooperate and/or at least try to do what they want me to
I’m not going to give up… I can’t do that… so that leaves me with just one option… doesn’t it?
I had an appointment with my pdoc this morning…
I took the first step…
I told him this… yeah… out loud…
It took me almost the entire time to get the words out of my head but i still did it!! …and that’s a start…