Things aren’t good but I keep telling myself …it could be worse….
A few days ago, my sister brought me a package from our Aunt, that among other things contained old recordings of me playing the piano… She’d sent me some before…. and many of those are available to download at my music site
I had asked her to send me those as my copies (many of them original recordings) were lost…
The package… the recordings are quite different from those she has sent before… but many of them are my personal compositions… peaces that I wrote… while my mother was still alive… some dedicated to my children… before the fire… and even recordings where my sisters are playing with me…
I waited…. I didn’t have the strength to listen to the tapes right after i got them…. not until yesterday… or I thought I was strong enough to listen to them… There are still songs that I haven’t played yet… I know that would be too difficult… but some of them… I just need to listen to them… I need to be all emotional… I need to cry… *sigh*
Maybe someday I will feel strong enough to share some of those… right now I’m not….
our healing comes in so many different ways Gabriel…take is slowly. crying is ok:) i am gald that the music is available for you when you are able to lsiten to it:) i have lost some of my poetry and to be able to “find” it again would be a good thing even when it is difficult to read, i think anyway.
take care of you, ill be gone a few days we are moving.
~be gentle with you~