I haven’t been sleeping very well for the last few days… Not only does my feeding pump (or my mistress as it’s called around here by the nurses) go crazy during the night…(which is a reminder I will need to have the tube replaced soon) …but i’ve also been having bad dreams where i wake up sweating and feeling like I’ve ran a marathon… I don’t particularly want to go into what those dreams/nightmares are about… but there is illnesses and death involved…but different person every time….people I love deeply…people who as far as i know care about me…. people I know both offline and/or online….
I keep telling myself that those are “just dreams”… but it’s hard to believe…. because at least the way I see it…. “just dreams” have been true for me in the past… and more than once or twice… I said… “the way I see it”… maybe because I’m hoping I’m wrong…
It’s sure exhausting when you can’t sleep, or you don’t sleep very well because your nights are filled with dreams and nightmares. I’ve been tossing and turning every night for this past week and I start nodding off the rest of the day. I hate that! I’ve been having this re-occuring dream too..hang in there.
Sorry to hear that my friend. I hope you’ll have a good night sleep when you go to bed tonight. Find a good book you can start reading, maybe that helps too:-) Miss you!
Huggs!
I know that nightmares can seem so real and it’s hard to get them out of our heads. Gab, I know that you fear that your dreams may become reality, but all you can do is pray that they don’t.