Like in the past I have the option of going home this weekend… but every time I’ve had this option in the past I’ve gone home… This time I’m thinking it would be better/safer not to… 🙁

I’m still having nightmares… still not sleeping too well…even though i’ve caved in and taken something to help me sleep… but I’m usually very against that… and obviously it doesn’t work very well for me anyway…

I don’t feel safe while this is going on… and I don’t know… especially if I leave here… that I will be able to go through this without losing my mind and harm myself in one way or another…

The staff here knows about all of this… and I trust them to help me through this… My wife knows about this as well and even though I trust her as well… I don’t trust my self… and I don’t want to put her… nor my children… through anything like that… so for now… knowing this will pass… and knowing i will have another opportunity to go home… I won’t go this weekend…

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