The weekend… there really isn’t much good i can say about it… Flashbacks… and self hatred… urges to self destruct… that kind of thing… and there really isn’t any point writing about it… Although I haven’t SIed or done anything stupid since last week… they had me on close watch… as well as computer restrictions on the weekend …more because I can’t be trusted to be alone in my room kind of thing and not enough people around on weekends to constantly checking on me…
Today I’ve been able to work on that skin I wrote about in my last post… and I was finally able to put it up… It’s not 100% done though… a few tweaks left to do here and there… but I couldn’t work on it last weekend or not as much as I wanted to at least… and I really need it up here to work on the final touches… and this kind of thing is really the only thing that is keeping me from totally losing my mind right now…
Btw… I’ve been meaning to ask this for a while now… I’m curious… Which skin are you using when you view my website?
Gabriel,
…. I always get confused about if it is a dream or a real memory. I do love the new skin! I am currently using the piano but think I will change to the new one when it is ready…I love the nature look! I really love all of the skins…very creative. You hang in there…next weekend will be brand new! 
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I HATE flashbacks
Are you in some kind of asylum or something? If so, what for? It makes me sad to hear about you wanting to hurt yourself, or atleast that’s what I got out of what you posted. It really does effect me in some ways because I used to do that myself. I found outlets and eventually overcame it.
Gabriel,
I’m sorry you had such a rough weekend…but I’m very happy that you didn’t SI….my thoughts are with you as always……..and to answer your question, I use skin no. 6…the one with the “Winnie the Pooh” quote….:)
Sarah
I love the new skin!! I really really love it! I’m sorry this weekend was hard for you … and I’m glad that you got through them safely. *hugs*
Gabriel,
I forgot to ask this on my earlier comment, but what skinn do you use…if you don’t mind my asking…:)
Sarah… I change skins a lot and i guess it really depends on if I’m working on a particular skin, or makeing a new one 😉 I also switch browsers a lot… so I have one skin set in IE and another in Netscape (or Opera…or Firefox) …which is also mostly for checking things out and making sure everything is working propperly… (I know there are quite a few details i need to work though after i installed the newst skin btw)
… but right now I’m using IE and the new skin (#21)
Kelli… to answer your question… I’m currently in a residential home/hospital trying to work on various mental problems… the self injury being one of them… I’ve been in here since last November and even though it takes time I believe I am making some progress…
I’m glad you’ve overcome your SI 🙂 …I hope I can do the same…