Even if “nothing is ever my fault” …why do i feel like such a shit!? why do I feel like everything is my fault? …and to a point I want to hurt myself …make my self physically suffer because of it?
Deep down I know the answer… deep down I know it is what I was taught in the past… but that doesn’t stop me from wondering …either way… because deep down I still don’t know who is right… and who is wrong…
this is a common thought for me, one i ahve to work so hard at…when i realize i am doing it. i have no answers, but i know what it feels like. there are times i wonder if it wille ver change no matter how hard i work to change the way i think… i guess the process and journey is the most important?