I am avoiding people… plane and simple… but still it’s that kind of thing where I don’t particularly want to talk to people… socialize or what ever… but at the same time I want to..

I’m not making much sense? …am I?

…at least i want people to know that I am here…that I exist…

I am terrified of being abandoned… waking up and finding myself all alone in the world…

not sure how i can explain this… explain how I feel … other than maybe:
– “i love you…but i don’t want to talk to you… if you love me you better talk to me.”

damn… that sound attention seeking… doesn’t it?

…and to think of it… i know i used to be worse with this…

Unlike now… with this post… when I feel like this …I know I should be making an effort to stay away from this all… hide in my corner…
*pause*
Don’t worry…. I’m going there now…