When you want something… really really want something… and it has been almost the only thing you’ve thought about for quite a while… and you talk about it all the time… do you ever feel like that all you do is just talk about it?

Lately I feel as I’m just repeating myself over and over… there are things that I want so much that it hurts thinking about it… and i fear that it must seem like I’m only wishing for them but not doing anything about it… if that makes sense… …and sometimes I even feel that I am not doing anything about it… (even though I am in a way or at least trying)… but it just doesn’t seem enough…

I guess i’m not making much sense today though… I kept myself away from here yesterday because I wouldn’t have made any sense at all then… but that seems to be the way for me a lot lately… and feelings of wanting to ‘just disappear and be ‘forgotten’….

…but yes I am going through a rough spot… but I have new ‘happy pills’… or more like new ‘making me more normal pills’ …maybe they will start working soon… 2 to 3 weeks i’m told…

Anyway… It’s Friday… I’m going home this weekend…

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