Now I guess I should write something here… Daughter’s orders… 😉
When I first decided I was going to to this again… writing online that is… I knew it would be somewhat difficult… but honestly I didn’t think it would be this much of a problem… Well maybe that will come with time…
I’m still not 100% happy with the theme I’m using though… or not even 80%… but knowing myself that can be a big factor… Hmm maybe that’s something I need to work on in the near future… It’s really just a part of my perfectionism though, I guess… so I’m working on something different…
Well… I wasn’t going to ramble on about the website… maybe, yes… but from different side…
I have been going through some of my older posts as I want to organize them a bit better by using maybe fewer categories and using tags. That however is quite a bit of work and not to mention the fact that I have to read through most of them… really for the first time since I wrote them. And that alone is not really doing me any good so this is probably going to take some time…
Amber was here yesterday and we spent some time together… everything from serious conversations to silly ones… It felt good… Even though I do understand her reasons I still wish she would live here with her mom and me rather than alone in her little flat. Don’t take me wrong, I’m not the dad who doesn’t want his daughter to grow up… It’s more because I worry about her because of her illness… I know how things can be with me and my tendencies to miss my signs… but even though our ‘relapse signs’ have been somewhat different in the past stress plays a big roll and with Amber going through exams at school…
We got to talk about all of this quite a bit yesterday… off how we feel and how we experience the ‘illness’ and it’s symptoms. I guess it’s fear to say she’s doing somewhat better than I am in that department… talking openly about it and more in touch with her feelings towards it…
still I am worried… but she IS my little girl so I guess that’s just normal…
