Sometimes life is just overwhelming…
He tries not to panic and puts all his energy he has left in him to focus on the good things in his life… But sometimes life is just too overwhelming and too scary and the little amount of energy he has just isn’t enough… He is tired and he wants to cut loose… let go of the rope he is hanging on to… He wishes he could just let himself fall… really?
No… In spite of the energy going away… he wants to hold on even tighter… not only for the people in his life… his “good things”… but for himself as well…
Parts of him want to beat “her”… just to make her out as the looser instead of him… Every now and then though, an evil thought creeps into his head… a thought that scares him more than anything else in this world… as he knows he won’t be able to survive that all over again…
He sits still and puts all his energy on the good things in his life… The faces of his family and focuses on how much he loves them and how they have helped him to see the beauty of life and the very fact that he really does deserve to see and feel beauty…
He doesn’t want to be ‘her victim’ anymore…
