To Chris Dec 20 1968 – April 12th 2001
Fourteen years since you left … way too soon…
I don’t think I ever thanked you properly for believing in me… for not listening when I didn’t go outside with you… You always wanted to go somewhere… wanted to study in the sun… go to a party… or meet people at a coffee house… When I wanted to lock myself in my room you persuaded me to come out from there… you saved me from myself so many time by telling me to come and talk…
We talked about anything and everything… I wanted to tell you things but it was almost like you knew already… I know you knew what I did when I was alone…. that I didn’t have to tell you unless I wanted to… and all that you asked as for me to be safe…. I wanted to and you helped me stay safe… Thank you for that…
You taught me so many things… and many of the things you taught me neither of us knew at the time… Even long after you left… I’m still learning from you… or rather… it’s more like I am just now taking in what you said… what we talked about both in our “serious” talks and while laughing together … and from the letters you left me… I realize now that I am a better person than I would have been if I hadn’t met you… because you taught me to love other people… you taught me to care about other people… you told me to laugh… and allow myself to believe that I deserved to be loved and cared about when I believed I shouldn’t be….
I want to tell you how much I wish you’d be here…. and how much …I want to hear your jokes that always made us go rolling on the floor laughing no matter how silly they were… You would have had a ball of fun with the poop jokes… and stoma farts and tummy sounds would probably have caused me a competition of some sort… I wish I could feel your hugs and have back the moments of the “serious talks” we used to have …I wish I could tell you over and over how I feel about you as my friend… my buddy …I wish I could have told you more often about how much I love you…. and how much I appreciate you coming into my life years ago and helping me to gain at least… some sense of my life… and inviting your sister to the November concert… Thank you for that…
I have so many thoughts running around in my head right now… some that make my heart filled with love …some make me want to cry my eyes out… and everything in between… I am scared for the future… but I know I can talk to you and get my strength from your words… from the memories… You are my friend… my best friend… Thank you for everything….
Love you always and forever…
Again tears are running down my face as I read you writing from your heart & soul. Chris saw what a GREAT heart you have. Your an incredible inspiration to others. I’m sure he’s watching over you. xxx
{{{{{Gail}}}} love you my friend!
I know Chris is still around… just like he said he would… <3
Gabriel,
You pull at my heartstrings. You must believe that the children are safe with Chris. He loves them too & will look after them until their in your arms again. I love you too xxx.
This is so sweet
You have such a beautiful heart…you really do…
I agree and feel privileged to know you, even if only through facebook. You are genuine, a survivor, have experienced more loss and pain than anyone should have to yet still have a beautiful heart and soul. I certainly admire the man you are.
Gabriel, deep love and such a huge heart. You have talents way beyond the piano. I know they say that things eventually come full circle. You have given so much and loved so deeply that I can only hope that will come true for you, my friend. Just looking at this photo gives me a pleasant feeling. Such a warm and friendly face smiling at you. Hugs to you and Sunna. Memories to treasure for a lifetime.
What a beautiful tribute. You are such an inspiration and I’m so glad I met you.
Xxx
How wonderful for you to have this person in your life. He was a lucky guy to be called your friend.
Happy Heavenly Birthday Chris! Thank you for guiding Gabriel while on earth & guiding Kim, Meg, David, Johnathan & Maria in Heaven. Such a handsome beautiful person who loved & cared for Gabriel. Being Sunnas brother must be why you have so much personality, because so does Sunna.
Gabriel, Chris inspired you to be a better person & you are. He’s a huge part of who you are and will always be. I’m sure he’s honored to have had such a huge impact on your life.
The next time your stoma farts think of him laughing and smile. I’m sure he’s laughing!
Honor his birthday today by smiling when you think of him. I’m sure he’s smiling down on you and Sunna.
Love you my friend. I’m so grateful your in my life to guide me & make me laugh. xxx
You are such a beautiful person. Inside and out. I’m honored to know you even if only thru fb and heartache. Happy heavenly birthday Chris. Many hugs Gabriel.
Thinking of you and wishing you strength to get through…xx
Thinking of you and Chris to Gabriel. Love and hugs xx