Today there are 9 years since I almost died… Yesterday I spent a couple of hours… at least… writing about the time from when I made my decision and until that day… October 16th 2006… in detail… my thoughts, the pain I felt in my soul… my whole body… before during and after… and about being reminded of this day (or night) ever since…
I deleted it… I deleted it because I don’t feel that way now… I never want to feel that way… ever again… I deleted it because I am grateful for failing that night… I am grateful for all the moments with my wife and kids… moments i would have missed… Every struggle since that night is worth it… multiple surgeries…chronic pain… even cancer… and whatever the future may bring… I know I can’t make promises… but I want to live… and be alive… and share more moments with my family… for them and …for me… as long as I possibly can…
???? I love you!!!
Love you to!! <3 <3 <3 <3
I love you Gabriel:)
Love you to my friend <3
We are warrior strong:)
Yes we are! I admit I’ve found it very difficult to accept until very recently …still is… but damn it! We are!
We are. I am so much stronger than I thought possible and so are you:)
This is definitely the deal of the century 😉 Love you beautiful <3
Oh wow Gabriel ?? so much love to you and your wonderful Familly xox
I’m SO glad you survived, you have given me hope that I will someday be better than I am now. Much love to you and your beautiful family ????????????????
thank you so much for posting this. I am so very glad you have gotten to this point in your life, and you are right, you and have such a wonderful family, and loved ones surrounding you!! too much love to pass up.
This is inspirational..i know everyday is different and a struggle..just last night and this morning i was dealing with thoughts,,and than i came across your post. you give hope. you give light to others when their world is filled with dark waters, storms, and disaster. thank you so much <3
you will get “there” too my friend <3…though I have secretly adopted you gurl 😉 Take your sister's message/contract to me and make it your own…."Promise me you will always remember…. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."
You're (adopted) father believes you are…. and so should you <3
I’m glad you continued on…. <3 nation wide <3 we all love you 🙂
So very glad you survived and now continue to thrive. Your music is so beautiful, you touch alot of people Gabriel, God gives us trials, but he Blesses us also, and I think he has Bledded you and your family. God Bless.
You are just one awesome dude, Gabriel.
AMEN GABRIEL! You have purpose on the Earth, you did then just as much as you do this day. I’m so glad YOU ARE HERE however I understand that kind of pain, for half my life. I pray to God daily for strength….physical, mentally, emotionally. To this day I still feel I don’t kno my purpose, & over last several years, & Lord spared me, He made me stay! He kept me here but why?? When i FINALLY realized we are all here for one soul purpose….TO PRAISE GOD & SPREAD HIS WORD, not to be happy. I was always looking for that ‘happy life’….LOL….Now that I’ll kno that answer one day b4 I depart. If I never know I’m ok w that too, bc we affect other ppl in ways we never knew 🙂 I pray for a great night for you, restful, & peaceful & wake up to another glorious day to give praise???? I hope you feel better REAL SOON & you kno ya got all of us here for you!
I wanted to reply properly to your comment Lisa … but religion is a very difficult subject for me…. and sometimes it’s just easier for me to shut up and ignore….
To me you have a purpose… it isn’t always about you being happy…. what is being happy anyway? …it’s also about what other people see in you… or how you make others feel …. if you try too hard… do it on purpose… you fail… if you do it by just being you ….you succeed…. and you are just being you <3
Beautifully written. Your truly a fighter. Xxx