23 questions

copied from quite a few people of my lj-friend list…
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 19, find line 4. Write down what it says:
”…server will be exactly the same as the source code of the page on the client.”
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
computer monitor
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
24
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
almost midnight
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
0:20 am
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
the dishwasher
7: When were you last outside? What were you doing?
yesterday (Saturday)… went for a visit to my sister-in-law with my wife and kids…
8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
Lunchbox forums
9: What are you wearing?
navy blue jog-suit
10: Did you dream last night? What about?
no dream is better than a bad one right?
11: When did you last laugh?
about 30 minutes ago… my 9 year old was talking and laughing from her sleep
12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
book shelfs
13: Seen anything weird lately?
every time I look in the mirror i see something weird :tongue: … seriously… no not really
14: What do you think of this quiz?
great for distraction
15: What is the last film you saw? In theatres?
uhm it’s been so long… I can’t even remember
16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
new car for my wife
17: Tell me something about you that I don’t know:
My wife and I use the same shoe size…
18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
…only one? there are way to many things that needs to be changed for one reason or another …i have actually no idea…
19: Do you like to dance?
No!
20: George Bush:
grrrr a spoiled little boy in a sandbox
21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
my first child was a girl… i named her Kimberly
21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
my 3rd child was my 1st boy… i named him David
22: Would you ever consider living abroad?
I have… uhm maybe if i’d be able to get my wife to go with me
23. A penny for your thoughts.
For some weird reason, I see HTML and CSS code everywhere :hehe:

Gender Identity

…guess mine is a little messed up :p… Not really a big surprise though

Gabriel, you’re 92% feminine

This is based on how you scored on a variety of traits that, founded on classic research and our own studies, are typically associated with women.

You’re also 8% masculine, which is based on how you scored on traits that are typically associated with men. When we compare your results with other men it shows that you are somewhat more feminine than other men.

But what is gender identity exactly? A person’s gender identity is defined by the extent to which they see themselves as masculine or feminine. Every person possesses both masculine and feminine qualities to some degree, however the extent to which each person has these qualities differs widely. While you were taking the test, we calculated your scores in 6 areas typically defined as masculine and 6 areas typically defined as feminine.

Are You More Masculine or Feminine?

I’m fucked?

This made me laugh for some weird reason

Status: Fucked

…and yes… I know I’m weird

…or maybe it’s a hint that I should put up a notice on the old site that I have moved my journal? ….so should I? …or shouldn’t I? that’s the big question that I keep asking my self… but I just can’t seem to make up my mind about that even though I have made a new index page already…. so I wonder…. what do you think if anything?

A survey thing

Ok i admit i’m a survey freak… I stole this from one of the forums i visit regluarly… already posted it there but I wanted it here as well…
35 years ago i was 2. I don’t remember anything about it but I moved from the US to the country I live now
30 years ago i was 7. not many memories other than playing the piano, being tortured, raped and other ugly stuff…*shudder*
25 years ago i was 12 and I was obsessed about death, had been for at least 2 years before… (not about dying though) and well it’s pretty much the same as at age 7…
20 years ago i was 17 i went away from home, alone for the first time in my life to go to school also for the first time in my life… didn’t do very well at first on the academic side but once my reading/writing problems where discovered i did fine… though girls and parties was all i really wanted
15 years ago i was 22 had been married for almost a year… and we had twins (well they were born on April 16th) We were living very close to my parents house… We could have been living somewhere else but Sunna loved my parents… she didn’t know what was going on with me and my mother even though i spent a lot of time over at her house… but Sunna believed that was because of my career… nothing more…
10 years ago i was 27 ugh well I was pretty much always drunk or on drugs… and i was a really bad/abusive husband to my wife… and probably spending more time at my mother’s than with my own family… we had 4 children…and expecting our 5th…later that year i did an attempt to recover from my drinking/drug abuse… went through 3 months of rehab… in August i flunked again when my house burnt down and killed my 4 children and my mother…and was pretty much just drinking heavily and doing drugs for the next 2-3 years
5 years ago i was 32. I was back with my wife…had cleaned up and pretty much living a normal life… or as close to normal I’ve ever been in my life… I had two jobs… one teaching music at the local elementary school and the other giving private piano lessons to kids… I miss that job horribly…
3 years ago i was 34. about a year before I’d started having panic attacks (again). I wasn’t sleeping or eating and I was also flashbacks…. and i was heavily into self injury… and pretty much in and out of hospital… especially after my sister Maria died in March that year… I felt responsible for her death… I still do in a way… She was suffering from injuries from an accident I caused by driving drunk 4 years before her death… which left her with severe brain damage and lots of complications because of that…
1 year ago i was 36. April 3rd 2002: I was in the middle of a public journal fight… someone who claimed to be a psychology student and know all about being multiple… and well she was pretty much being a stupid bitch… her site isn’t at the original location anymore but I replied to her post on my site here. A few months later this girl actually emailed me and apologized for the whole incident… I admit it was a big surprise to me but I accepted and as far as I know she still reads my journal for some weird reason…
6 months: Pretty much the same as it is now… I was having physical problems related to my eating disorder that kinda scared me at the time… I decided to try to get better but uhm I’ve changed my mind quite a few times since then…
yesterday: I lost control and SIed…pretty badly… which i haven’t done for a while now… Then after we got home from the ER I pretty much spent the whole day on the computer or at least until Sunna got home…
tomorrow will probably be pretty much the same as yesterday and any other day…

Silly survey

Ok this isn’t one of those normal kind of surveys where I’d post questions and answers… This on is for you only 😛 But don’t worry… it’s ok if you don’t know some of the answers…. just give it a try… but no teating please 🙂
I know I’m a copy cat :ashamed:

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What is in a name?

This is interesting and it’s a bit scary how accurate this is…

Your name of Gabriel has created a most expressive nature, idealistic and inspirational, driven with a strong inner urge to be of service in some way that would uplift humanity as a whole. However, there is a tendency to assume too heavy a burden of responsibility for others, which leads to worry and undue concern. People with problems are drawn to you as they recognize you as one who has understanding and gives not only sympathy and comfort but provides also some constructive advice or assistance. You have a generous quality to your nature, but you must guard carefully against giving more than you receive or you will find yourself doing without because you have helped someone else. You love people, family, home, and friends and try to be a parent to the whole human race. While you have generally stable conditions in your personal life, you may experience some problems in business affairs through a tendency to be scattering and inattentive to details. Any health problems would show as tension in the nervous system brought on by worry.

Your name of Sunna has given you a capable patient, responsible nature with a talent for accounting, computers, and similar fields. You plan ahead giving careful consideration to detail. Your home and family are important to you. You have the ability to be an excellent homemaker and mother, or a teacher, as you appreciate people and know how to make them feel at ease, but you are inclined to worry over your responsibilities. You enjoy a daily routine and settled conditions, once you have found a comfortable niche in life. You resist changes until you have examined an idea in detail and until all facts fall into place. If you have to make a change, it is not easy to do so happily. You do not readily change your ideas unless you are thoroughly convinced that you must. Any weakness in your health would show in your intestinal tract causing constipation and related difficulties, over-stoutness, or rheumatism, although this name creates a fairly healthy nature.

What is in your name?

Monday Mission 2.41

…brought to you by Promoguy

1. What’s the most expensive meal you’ve ever eaten? What was the occasion? Was it worth it?
I’m not sure… I hardly ever go to a fansy restaurant… or something like that… however I do remember one occasion… I was 11 maybe 12… with my memory of my childhood and all… I think it was in a foreign country… somewhere in Europe, I remember there were lots of fancy people in there… a guy and his wife… my mother was there too… the occasion of this “get_to_gether” was a concert and a probable record contract… The food looked horrible… I thought it was eating me instead of I eating the food… I ate it all… because she told me too… but I couldn’t keep it down… I didn’t get the desert I really wanted because of that…. When the couple was gone i remember her bitching about how expensive the meal was… and… how i was wasting “her” money (when she really used my money to pay for it) …no it wasn’t worth it… not at all…

2. What do you like to do when nobody is looking?
don’t think I really need to say it… SI/purging

3. What’s your special purpose?
It depends…. in general… to cope through the day…

4. Do you like Autumn? If so, why? If not, tell me about your favorite season.
I don’t really have a favorite season… but if I had to pick one I’d say the summer as it is the warmest… but I’d really wish I could see the beauty in the autumn rain…

5. Ever recommended a movie to someone only to have them hate it? Which movie? Did you feel uncomfortable about that? not as I remember…. or that I know off….

6. I’ve had hay fever all day! Sniffles, sneezing, I tell ya, it’s awful! Do you have any allergies? Anything that just gets you down for the count?
I actually feel “better” when I’m sick…. I don’t know if I have allergies or not… at least I don’t have sniffles/sneezing type…

7. Do you like mixed drinks? What is your favorite? As long as we’re here how about you order me something too? Just “surprise me!”
No I don’t like them at all…. I only drink coffee and occasional glass of water if I have to…

BONUS: Why do we scream at each other?
I don’t scream at other people… maybe I should start doing that….

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