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Time Out

Time Out

The Reasons of Life

The Reasons of Life

Health Anxiety

Health Anxiety

My Mind & And Body

My Mind & And Body

…Until We Meet Again

…Until We Meet Again

The Situation of the Situation

The Situation of the Situation

Of belief and disbelief…

Of belief and disbelief…

Chemo – The start…

Chemo – The start…

The Inner Emotional Overflow

The Inner Emotional Overflow

Of Fears and Future

Of Fears and Future

A Year ago…

A Year ago…

Surgery

Surgery

When it Rains it Pours… So Get your Umbrella

When it Rains it Pours… So Get your Umbrella

Month of chaos

Month of chaos

Moments of Being

Moments of Being

Just one of those days….

Just one of those days….

Some Randomness

Some Randomness

Invisible disability

Invisible disability

Yes or No? …That is the Question

Yes or No? …That is the Question

Every Moment You Get is a Gift

Every Moment You Get is a Gift

Bits and pieces…

Bits and pieces…

The need to fit somewhere

The need to fit somewhere

Chopin – Fantasy Impromtu

Chopin – Fantasy Impromtu

The year of  2015

The year of 2015

Love Struck

Love Struck

Insanity of the Moment

Insanity of the Moment

Day 45 (Week 8) EC Surgery

Day 45 (Week 8) EC Surgery

A Shadow From the Past

A Shadow From the Past

Life and living

Life and living

Swallow

Swallow

A Brain Working Overtime

A Brain Working Overtime

Day 10 – EC Surgery

Day 10 – EC Surgery

Day 9 – EC Surgery

Day 9 – EC Surgery

Day 8 – EC Surgery

Day 8 – EC Surgery

Day 7 – EC Surgery

Day 7 – EC Surgery

Day 6 – EC surgery

Day 6 – EC surgery

Day 5 – EC Surgery

Day 5 – EC Surgery

Day 4 – EC surgery

Day 4 – EC surgery

Day 3 – EC Surgery

Day 3 – EC Surgery

Day 2 – EC Surgery

Day 2 – EC Surgery

Day 1- EC Surgery

Day 1- EC Surgery

Day of surgery

Day of surgery

The Next Battle

The Next Battle

The Tail of the Broken Foodpipe

The Tail of the Broken Foodpipe

Twenty three years…

Twenty three years…

A Bump In the Road

A Bump In the Road

Feelings – Random Thoughts

Feelings – Random Thoughts

Under re-construction

Under re-construction

Happy Birthday Mother

Happy Birthday Mother

Two Special Birthday Boys

Two Special Birthday Boys

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday

To my friend

To my friend

A Video

A Video

Keeping busy

Keeping busy

The Child

The Child

Input – Output

Input – Output

A Box Full of Fears

A Box Full of Fears

Kind of on a blogging brake…

Kind of on a blogging brake…

Twenty years

Twenty years

Q&A from my readers

Q&A from my readers

Learning to speak

Learning to speak

Good bye 2014

Good bye 2014

New Tube and New Meds

New Tube and New Meds

Birthday memorial

Birthday memorial

Passworded Posts

Passworded Posts

The Beauty and the Beast of Life (Part 2)

The Beauty and the Beast of Life (Part 2)

About a Boy

About a Boy

Untitled

Untitled

November Rain

November Rain

Of me and Depression

Of me and Depression

Memories

Memories

You are what you eat

You are what you eat

Silence

Silence

At this moment

At this moment

Just a short note…

Just a short note…

A Battle to Win

A Battle to Win

River Flows In You – Yiruma

River Flows In You – Yiruma

The Beauty and the Beast of Life

The Beauty and the Beast of Life

My Boys

My Boys

Happy Father’s Day

Happy Father’s Day

Ileoscopy

Ileoscopy

Don’t fall off…

Don’t fall off…

The Painist and the Girl

The Painist and the Girl

Grandpa talking

Grandpa talking

An Elephant in the bed?

An Elephant in the bed?

Today

Today

My Glorious Tummy

My Glorious Tummy

Writing

Writing

The Little Good Things

The Little Good Things

Insecurity – ???

Insecurity – ???

I’m Mentally Ill – Are You Afraid of Me?

I’m Mentally Ill – Are You Afraid of Me?

Mind full of thoughts

Mind full of thoughts

Words

Words

Little Butterflies

Little Butterflies

It’s bed time

It’s bed time

From now on…

From now on…

Mother’s day – again

Mother’s day – again

Random

Random

Once up on a time

Once up on a time

I really am OK

I really am OK

Love

Love

Titles are overrated

Titles are overrated

So True

So True

No words today

No words today

Dear Schizophrenia

Dear Schizophrenia

Schizophrenia and me

Schizophrenia and me

Happy birthday Amber

Happy birthday Amber

Now, write something!

Now, write something!

Words…

Words…

Some thoughts…

Some thoughts…

First real post at this place

First real post at this place

Dark Afternoon David Neuve (cover)

Dark Afternoon David Neuve (cover)

Child Falling Asleep

Child Falling Asleep

Another mp3 upload

Another mp3 upload

Just some music

Just some music

The “it”

The “it”

Music

Music

Voices

Voices

auto pilot

auto pilot

Out of hiding…

Out of hiding…

don’t belong

don’t belong

I haven’t been updating much lately have I?

I haven’t been updating much lately have I?

…just another day

…just another day

A man and his wishes

A man and his wishes

Bleh

Bleh

random

random

Tube… No More

Tube… No More

Hiatus

Hiatus

Good Bye Tube

Good Bye Tube

Sick

Sick

real unreality

real unreality

operation simple

operation simple

some random thing

some random thing

blah blah

blah blah

nothing much

nothing much

Email problems

Email problems

I just want it to be simple…

I just want it to be simple…

I can do better…

I can do better…

Forever lasting…

Forever lasting…

one day at the time

one day at the time

Tommy

Tommy

memories

memories

well I guess…

well I guess…

A Brake

A Brake

…some days

…some days

A survey thing

A survey thing

grumpy old man

grumpy old man

not this time

not this time

just a “simple” meal

just a “simple” meal

nothing really…

nothing really…

A dialogue

A dialogue

Some days…

Some days…

A Good Thing…but

A Good Thing…but

*untitled*

*untitled*

Skins and such

Skins and such

bleh

bleh

Faqs section

Faqs section

resting is overrated

resting is overrated

I’m here

I’m here

quietness

quietness

funnytummy.com

funnytummy.com

Slow Down Man!

Slow Down Man!

Hi I’m Stoma

Hi I’m Stoma

100 days!

100 days!

bleh… just because

bleh… just because

Food for thought

Food for thought

learning to eat again

learning to eat again

shame on me

shame on me

Tummy Tales

Tummy Tales

just a thought….

just a thought….

Phew!

Phew!

ouch

ouch

brainless

brainless

Shit

Shit

No Pity. No Shame. No Silence

No Pity. No Shame. No Silence

put anything here

put anything here

health issues

health issues

quietness

quietness

LB is down

LB is down

bleh

bleh

back… bleh

back… bleh

emergency

emergency

boo!

boo!

Spooky

Spooky

change of plans

change of plans

it will pass…

it will pass…

one-liner

one-liner

but who cares anyway?

but who cares anyway?

drowning

drowning

A moment in tears

A moment in tears

revenge? …hell no

revenge? …hell no

The Collector’s Pit

The Collector’s Pit

blood tests

blood tests

bleh

bleh

Happy Birthday to…

Happy Birthday to…

Never in a million years

Never in a million years

lazy day

lazy day

*sigh*

*sigh*

happy

happy

Silently rambling

Silently rambling

go away!

go away!

ugh

ugh

sick

sick

psst

psst

grrr…. oh well

grrr…. oh well

Sunday night randoms

Sunday night randoms

attention everybody! ;)

attention everybody! 😉

what the…?

what the…?

they’re watching me

they’re watching me

Insanity

Insanity

Notning and everything

Notning and everything

multicolor darkness

multicolor darkness

counter reset

counter reset

detached

detached

New Skin

New Skin

Note

Note

Per Mena’s request…

Per Mena’s request…

Fly

Fly

I’ll be back

I’ll be back

Finally….

Finally….

Few things random

Few things random

home

home

weigh-in

weigh-in

sorry

sorry

not really alone but…

not really alone but…

TPN

TPN

curse of evil

curse of evil

Thinking Out loud

Thinking Out loud

Days like this…

Days like this…

memory loss

memory loss

more butt kicking

more butt kicking

butt kick

butt kick

random ramblings

random ramblings

Spam and more spam

Spam and more spam

Long day… too long

Long day… too long

inside my head…

inside my head…

bleh

bleh

Restricted posts

Restricted posts

Fear

Fear

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday

skin number 21

skin number 21

It’s Friday

It’s Friday

Birthday Remembrance

Birthday Remembrance

The monsters

The monsters

Eternity

Eternity

23 questions

23 questions

He’s distant

He’s distant

I’m around…

I’m around…

sick

sick

Gender Identity

Gender Identity

just frustrated

just frustrated

Back

Back

Update

Update

See you soon

See you soon

I want life

I want life

Very random

Very random

Wind Beneath My Wings

Wind Beneath My Wings

I’m back

I’m back

A brake

A brake

Finally

Finally

mwahhh

mwahhh

random

random

Staying Safe

Staying Safe

Just a normal day

Just a normal day

woot!

woot!

Sleep

Sleep

Sometimes

Sometimes

Awareness

Awareness

New default skin

New default skin

Emotions

Emotions

A few random things…

A few random things…

wow -ha!

wow -ha!

proudly supporting

proudly supporting

speaking…

speaking…

Random

Random

A Sigh

A Sigh

not around

not around

totally random…

totally random…

Sick …again…

Sick …again…

So anyway….

So anyway….

the hospital trip

the hospital trip

tummy trouble

tummy trouble

look at what i found!

look at what i found!

First step

First step

Random

Random

drugged

drugged

anxious like hell

anxious like hell

just the way it is

just the way it is

Change that thought….

Change that thought….

Sleep

Sleep

well…

well…

head above surface

head above surface

Thank you!

Thank you!

I failed

I failed

Precious

Precious

Hibernating

Hibernating

Random

Random

psst

psst

afterlife

afterlife

Back Home

Back Home

Moving

Moving

uhm

uhm

Randomness

Randomness

So anyway

So anyway

Silence

Silence

Memorial

Memorial

back

back

Not around

Not around

hardly an entry…

hardly an entry…

I’m fucked?

I’m fucked?

Christmas memory

Christmas memory

I’m sad…

I’m sad…

Guess what!

Guess what!

More Time

More Time

forgive and forget

forgive and forget

Finally

Finally

quick

quick

Old medical records

Old medical records

bleh  what ever

bleh what ever

I really don’t need this

I really don’t need this

damn

damn

it’s that simple

it’s that simple

grumpy

grumpy

i’m here

i’m here

happy birthday to me

happy birthday to me

Trouble

Trouble

bad day

bad day

grrr

grrr

new beginning

new beginning

quick eep

quick eep

bahh

bahh

this has to end

this has to end

A candle lit

A candle lit

Note to Self

Note to Self

Totally random

Totally random

Comment Spam

Comment Spam

If

If

Ramblings

Ramblings

The Blues

The Blues

50 days

50 days

quietness

quietness

more on the job

more on the job

eep

eep

job offer

job offer

Phew!

Phew!

nothing… that’s me

nothing… that’s me

tummy doc appt

tummy doc appt

Too Fat

Too Fat

sigh

sigh

I miss you

I miss you

Sometimes….

Sometimes….

there *is* hope

there *is* hope

again on the notify list

again on the notify list

…yes i really am going

…yes i really am going

Inadequacy

Inadequacy

I took a brake

I took a brake

Support

Support

…no subject

…no subject

….random

….random

The Princess

The Princess

My Own Prison

My Own Prison

I’m not dead

I’m not dead

It’s a Girl

It’s a Girl

Loneliness

Loneliness

To know or not to know…

To know or not to know…

Just Hiding

Just Hiding

Never Forget

Never Forget

A Random Thought

A Random Thought

New Skin

New Skin

Just Random

Just Random

Step by Step

Step by Step

Friends Without Faces

Friends Without Faces

Hurting?

Hurting?

losing it

losing it

Just numb

Just numb

My birthday boys

My birthday boys

Random thoughts

Random thoughts

Far from perfect

Far from perfect

just a quick word

just a quick word

Random thought

Random thought

I’m back

I’m back

Going to hospital

Going to hospital

flashbacks

flashbacks

bad night… …more flash backs…

bad night… …more flash backs…

i know i probably shouldn’t

i know i probably shouldn’t

I’ll be back later…

I’ll be back later…

Unreal but yet so real

Unreal but yet so real

Obsession

Obsession

Gastroparesis

Gastroparesis

New skin

New skin

random (evil) though

random (evil) though

Check up

Check up

i’m not dead…

i’m not dead…

Are you ok?

Are you ok?

still here…but

still here…but

good bye

good bye

On my mind

On my mind

memories

memories

just trying to cope

just trying to cope

New Plumbing

New Plumbing

Good days

Good days

the day @ random

the day @ random

memories

memories

Climbing the Mountain

Climbing the Mountain

Interesting link

Interesting link

not around much

not around much

What the hell?

What the hell?

I hate it!

I hate it!

I don’t know…

I don’t know…

Excuse me while I Scream

Excuse me while I Scream

doc appt

doc appt

…so i’m borded and when

…so i’m borded and when

I always wonder…

I always wonder…

bleh

bleh

I’m back

I’m back

A little update

A little update

Going to Hospital

Going to Hospital

over stressed

over stressed

Birthday Memorial

Birthday Memorial

I’ve had my eyes closed…

I’ve had my eyes closed…

I’m sorry

I’m sorry

Happy denial

Happy denial

forever best friends

forever best friends

just a few things

just a few things

roller-coaster ride

roller-coaster ride

A survey thing

A survey thing

my previous post

my previous post

me the freak… fucked up

me the freak… fucked up

New skin

New skin

My Absence

My Absence

let it be known

let it be known

…this is a random rant…

…this is a random rant…

I’m still here

I’m still here

Silent Memorial

Silent Memorial

Hope

Hope

in the still of the night…

in the still of the night…

thoughts turning around

thoughts turning around

Skins are back

Skins are back

Nightmare or flashback?

Nightmare or flashback?

Stop Pro-Anorexia

Stop Pro-Anorexia

Pro something

Pro something

Lost Somewhere

Lost Somewhere

One skin for now

One skin for now

Eating Attitudes Test

Eating Attitudes Test

My House

My House

This and that

This and that

bad mood warning

bad mood warning

I’m Diagnosed With an Eating Dissorder

I’m Diagnosed With an Eating Dissorder

You Have To Stop This, you’ll disappear….

You Have To Stop This, you’ll disappear….

I may not be around much

I may not be around much

i really shouldn’t….

i really shouldn’t….

Random Thoughts

Random Thoughts

Still up

Still up

Trackback/Pings

Trackback/Pings

My angel tonight

My angel tonight

Coding woes

Coding woes

Thoughts in silence

Thoughts in silence

A “normal” day

A “normal” day

just by myself

just by myself

Damn Headaches

Damn Headaches

Don’t Panic!

Don’t Panic!

numbers

numbers

one of those days…

one of those days…

Skins

Skins

Pilgrim by Enya

Pilgrim by Enya

movabletype upgrade

movabletype upgrade

everyting will be ok

everyting will be ok

Helpless

Helpless

member titles

member titles

Empty throughts at random

Empty throughts at random

i’m back

i’m back

a brake

a brake

Wasted

Wasted

just a thought

just a thought

doc appointment

doc appointment

out of hiding? well maybe

out of hiding? well maybe

not much to say

not much to say

grrr

grrr

MySQL is slow

MySQL is slow

A twisted thought

A twisted thought

random thoughts

random thoughts

Comments please

Comments please

…today

…today

So We’re Here

So We’re Here

Eight Years Ago

Eight Years Ago

Moving the journal

Moving the journal

A brake

A brake

Day by Day

Day by Day

Peek-a-boo

Peek-a-boo

I’m still here

I’m still here

sleepflower.org

sleepflower.org

A way to start 2003

A way to start 2003

Just a note

Just a note

Remembering

Remembering

Memorial

Memorial

Strange things happen

Strange things happen

Security Line

Security Line

Flashback

Flashback

My brother

My brother

Thank you

Thank you

No SI (babble) log

No SI (babble) log

It’s a start… I  guess

It’s a start… I guess

Maybe I have a chance

Maybe I have a chance

Questions… no reply

Questions… no reply

We’re back

We’re back

Off-Line

Off-Line

Silly survey

Silly survey

The Weekend

The Weekend

Doc appointment

Doc appointment

Multiple or DID/MPD?

Multiple or DID/MPD?

Monday morning Urges

Monday morning Urges

Computer is off

Computer is off

To be or not to be…

To be or not to be…

warning sign

warning sign

Birthday – Memorial

Birthday – Memorial

New default skin

New default skin

What is in a name?

What is in a name?

Happy birthday to me

Happy birthday to me

I need to ramble

I need to ramble

nothing much

nothing much

Anorexia is not a diet…

Anorexia is not a diet…

Skins working now

Skins working now

Doing better

Doing better

Trapped in care

Trapped in care

Thought @ Random

Thought @ Random

Skining… again…

Skining… again…

Hiding

Hiding

Flirting with recovery

Flirting with recovery

Happy Birthday David

Happy Birthday David

pointless whine

pointless whine

Strange

Strange

heart problems

heart problems

Not “ED” enough

Not “ED” enough

Dance of Life

Dance of Life

participation positives

participation positives

Monday Mission 2.41

Monday Mission 2.41

Something’s up…

Something’s up…

Privious Entry

Privious Entry

Shame

Shame

nothing really

nothing really

Site refreshments

Site refreshments

little bit better

little bit better

My Space…

My Space…

What legend are you?

What legend are you?

Few words….

Few words….

random negativity

random negativity

My Little Universe

My Little Universe

Silence

Silence

I’m back at last!

I’m back at last!

disrespect??

disrespect??

Going offline

Going offline

Small request

Small request

Moving

Moving

I’m here

I’m here

You say “Jesus loves me”

You say “Jesus loves me”

Ranking on Google

Ranking on Google

So you want an eating disorder?

So you want an eating disorder?

Alternatives

Alternatives

Monday Mission 2.28

Monday Mission 2.28

Hope?

Hope?

Friday Five

Friday Five

Who are you?

Who are you?

The rollercoaster ride

The rollercoaster ride

Random thoughts and things

Random thoughts and things

Quiz

Quiz

bad mood

bad mood

darkness

darkness

New Layout

New Layout

Crazy Stuff…I guess

Crazy Stuff…I guess

Still here…

Still here…

I need a brake….

I need a brake….

Silence

Silence

Monday Mission 2.27

Monday Mission 2.27

He’s back!

He’s back!

special people

special people

A brake…once again…

A brake…once again…

Pro-something?

Pro-something?

mood swings

mood swings

Monday Mission 2.26

Monday Mission 2.26

Bloggys resaults

Bloggys resaults

I wonder…

I wonder…

If tomorrow never comes

If tomorrow never comes

Last post continued…

Last post continued…

Random thoughts

Random thoughts

The Google Game

The Google Game

Read Me – A Blogger’s Disclaimer

Read Me – A Blogger’s Disclaimer

The Piano

The Piano

sleepflower.org

sleepflower.org

The Bloggys

The Bloggys

Monday Mission

Monday Mission

maybe… maybe not…

maybe… maybe not…

In need of a crisis?

In need of a crisis?

somewhat back

somewhat back

An unwanted brake

An unwanted brake

Happy Birthday Sunna

Happy Birthday Sunna

Positives

Positives

Monday Mission 2.22

Monday Mission 2.22

Im my head

Im my head

Computer problems

Computer problems

First Day at School

First Day at School

Site hick-ups?

Site hick-ups?

From a Book

From a Book

It’s Friday

It’s Friday

Just checking in

Just checking in

Loss of words

Loss of words

Back

Back

Going Passworded

Going Passworded

I don’t know for sure…

I don’t know for sure…

Something you should know…

Something you should know…

mother’s day

mother’s day

Improving without effort,

Improving without effort,

No sleep

No sleep

Evil powers

Evil powers

Random Thoughts

Random Thoughts

Bad day

Bad day

SOS  lost memory chip!

SOS lost memory chip!

Monday Mission 2.18

Monday Mission 2.18

Childish games

Childish games

nothing to say really

nothing to say really

Guess What?

Guess What?

self censorship

self censorship

ugh

ugh

Monday Mission 2.17

Monday Mission 2.17

Family time

Family time

random thoughts

random thoughts

Listen

Listen

6’1″  and  134lbs

6’1″ and 134lbs

blah rambilings

blah rambilings

My World

My World

Web Logers Commandments

Web Logers Commandments

Monday Mission 2.16

Monday Mission 2.16

Only death

Only death

random ramblings from a crazy person

random ramblings from a crazy person

A Brake

A Brake

Angel Song

Angel Song

Why we are not DID

Why we are not DID

The Best Thing

The Best Thing

test really

test really

Got To – Want To

Got To – Want To

Forever 5

Forever 5

end of a friend ship

end of a friend ship

Fear or obsession

Fear or obsession

Memorial

Memorial

behind on everything

behind on everything

Hiding Angels

Hiding Angels

Random Thoughts

Random Thoughts

Our Pain

Our Pain

Blogger Insider

Blogger Insider

I am here

I am here

distant feelings

distant feelings

Monday Mission 2.14

Monday Mission 2.14

Friday Five

Friday Five

I only wish…..

I only wish…..

The Snowfamily

The Snowfamily

The Weblog Review

The Weblog Review

Signing Off for Easter

Signing Off for Easter

Positives

Positives

Monday Mission 2.12

Monday Mission 2.12

Are you linking to my site?

Are you linking to my site?

Out of here!

Out of here!

Memorial

Memorial

checking in

checking in

I’m around

I’m around

Monday Mission 2.11

Monday Mission 2.11

weekend bit

weekend bit

huh?

huh?

Inside Children

Inside Children

Almost Silent II

Almost Silent II

Almost Silent

Almost Silent

Sunna

Sunna

Friday Five

Friday Five

Rain got hosted!

Rain got hosted!

You can Fly

You can Fly

Monday Mission 2.9

Monday Mission 2.9

Unknown

Unknown

grrrr

grrrr

Eating Attitudes Test

Eating Attitudes Test

gente della luna

gente della luna

Blogger Insider

Blogger Insider

Back  and Monday Mission 2.8

Back and Monday Mission 2.8

site problem ramblings

site problem ramblings

Something came up

Something came up

What is a friend?

What is a friend?

Monday Mission 2.7

Monday Mission 2.7

multiplicity as a disorder

multiplicity as a disorder

promise

promise

attention layout gurus

attention layout gurus

participation positives

participation positives

Fucking shit!

Fucking shit!

pain

pain

back again

back again

a small brake

a small brake

Off for the weekend

Off for the weekend

She is back

She is back

Neighbours

Neighbours

questions and answers

questions and answers

positives

positives

was she right or wrong?

was she right or wrong?

How well do you know us?

How well do you know us?

Out of Place

Out of Place

Rambling Rain

Rambling Rain

Blogger Insider

Blogger Insider

Friday five

Friday five

To day I must feel bad

To day I must feel bad

WOW

WOW

The If Project

The If Project

distraction

distraction

Downfall

Downfall

multiplicity

multiplicity

New Year, New Begining

New Year, New Begining

Christmas Whishes

Christmas Whishes

Skins

Skins

birthday – memorial

birthday – memorial

Blogger Insider

Blogger Insider

Friday Five

Friday Five

Names and multiplicity

Names and multiplicity

my day

my day

For Sandee

For Sandee

Low profile

Low profile

Friday Five

Friday Five

huh?

huh?

a little memorial

a little memorial

The layout mania

The layout mania

quiz and site news

quiz and site news

Friday Five

Friday Five

Christmass Shoping

Christmass Shoping

Kit’s questions

Kit’s questions

browser problems

browser problems

who is there?

who is there?

therapy

therapy

miss u

miss u

oh well

oh well

birthday

birthday

bad bad bad

bad bad bad

braking

braking

bye for a while

bye for a while

no answer

no answer

same old story

same old story

a story

a story

pain

pain

A Boy Named David

A Boy Named David

Happy birthday Greymatter!

Happy birthday Greymatter!

Version 10

Version 10

complications

complications

Site update

Site update

Positives

Positives

A bit of a crisis

A bit of a crisis

Gabriel’s todo list

Gabriel’s todo list

back

back

Multicolored

Multicolored

a brake

a brake

Sleepflower

Sleepflower

go(o)d and (d)evil

go(o)d and (d)evil

Common phobias

Common phobias

Facing my fears

Facing my fears

One fine day

One fine day

That Morning

That Morning

Last post continued

Last post continued

Holding back

Holding back

destraction

destraction

Still here

Still here

Just in case

Just in case

Yey! a survey

Yey! a survey

Highs and lows

Highs and lows

Version 9

Version 9

Layout Mania

Layout Mania

bad thoughts

bad thoughts

No words or energy

No words or energy

My personality?

My personality?

New Layout

New Layout

Site under construction

Site under construction

To a Special Friend

To a Special Friend

Addiction

Addiction

back or?

back or?

Different Worlds

Different Worlds

Past days

Past days

My boys

My boys

Dream

Dream

Apologizing?

Apologizing?

we scard

we scard

Death by law

Death by law

Yay me!

Yay me!

Please Listen

Please Listen

Oh No! New look

Oh No! New look

Divine Plan

Divine Plan

back

back

hospital

hospital

minor changes

minor changes

Here again

Here again

A brake

A brake

Why do you come?

Why do you come?

Happy being Sad

Happy being Sad

silence

silence

Thank you N^

Thank you N^

Darkness vs Light

Darkness vs Light

Away for a few days

Away for a few days

Happy or Paranoid?

Happy or Paranoid?

Confused

Confused

Please don’t!

Please don’t!

More Mp3 added

More Mp3 added

Choice of life

Choice of life

Drinking and Driving

Drinking and Driving

Lifestyle

Lifestyle

Don’t steal my soul

Don’t steal my soul

Life after loss

Life after loss

Crazy little things

Crazy little things

Despair

Despair

A brake maybe

A brake maybe

Happy birthday

Happy birthday

scard

scard

How are you?

How are you?

No words

No words

What is in the future

What is in the future

Mp3s are up

Mp3s are up

More mp3 coming soon

More mp3 coming soon

Face Lift?

Face Lift?

I’m just bored

I’m just bored

Yet another day

Yet another day

Feeling nothing

Feeling nothing

Coming out??

Coming out??

New look

New look

Coping by Cutting

Coping by Cutting

Searching for answers

Searching for answers

Bad news

Bad news

Back

Back

Going offline

Going offline

A battle, lost or won

A battle, lost or won

Family Honor

Family Honor

Dear Word

Dear Word

New MP3s uploaded

New MP3s uploaded

Website changes

Website changes

A strange ICQ chat

A strange ICQ chat

No way out

No way out

Anger?  Fear?  Grief?

Anger? Fear? Grief?

A bad day by choise.

A bad day by choise.

With out words

With out words

Java Script errors

Java Script errors

Website ramblings

Website ramblings

New Pages

New Pages

Silence

Silence

Taking a little break

Taking a little break

Rebuilding

Rebuilding

Maria Carolyn

Maria Carolyn

An Angel got her Wings

An Angel got her Wings

The upcoming holidays

The upcoming holidays

I am back

I am back

Going to Hospital

Going to Hospital

At last

At last

Music  makes everything a little bit easier

Music makes everything a little bit easier

Memorial to Judy Divers

Memorial to Judy Divers

Positives

Positives

Cleaning House

Cleaning House

More memories  (triggering)

More memories (triggering)

The little boy

The little boy

Haunted by the memories

Haunted by the memories

What does it mean to me to be multiple?

What does it mean to me to be multiple?

My last ??? days  – what has been going on with us (me)

My last ??? days – what has been going on with us (me)

35 years ….will I make it?

35 years ….will I make it?

Feeling bad about self

Feeling bad about self

Thoughts of ending it all

Thoughts of ending it all

Flash backs

Flash backs

When your life is out of control

When your life is out of control

A childs birthday

A childs birthday

A sad news but expected….I guess

A sad news but expected….I guess

Alice who?? LOL

Alice who?? LOL

none really….just testing

none really….just testing

hospital

hospital

Searching for something

Searching for something

How do I feel?

How do I feel?

My t session this morning

My t session this morning

T is sick :(

T is sick 🙁

A bit better

A bit better

Suicidal thoughts

Suicidal thoughts

Wondering about the inner family

Wondering about the inner family

Feeling Helpless….ramblings and…?

Feeling Helpless….ramblings and…?

Bad thoughts

Bad thoughts

I don’t belive her but still I cut

I don’t belive her but still I cut

My Dad

My Dad

I tried to talk to talk to him but I can’t

I tried to talk to talk to him but I can’t

Positives

Positives

We ar skard

We ar skard

Mean or not

Mean or not

talking to parents

talking to parents

Positives

Positives

Memorial

Memorial

Positives and Negatives

Positives and Negatives

I’m back

I’m back

Going to hospital

Going to hospital

scared

scared

Positives

Positives

Johnny

Johnny

Evil or not…

Evil or not…

Alone

Alone

Positive #5

Positive #5

Something positive and ….. the other too

Something positive and ….. the other too

Sorry

Sorry

Aiuto!?

Aiuto!?

The weekend

The weekend

Feeling Paranoied

Feeling Paranoied

Positves

Positves

Fighting the Urges

Fighting the Urges

Feeling Alone……Ramblings

Feeling Alone……Ramblings

Am I letting the SI run me?

Am I letting the SI run me?

Flashbacks, SI…my life…

Flashbacks, SI…my life…

My Dad

My Dad

Driving The Urges Away

Driving The Urges Away

Positives

Positives

Ramblings

Ramblings

Just Some thoughts

Just Some thoughts

Yet another sleepless night

Yet another sleepless night

Bad?

Bad?

back from the looney bin

back from the looney bin

hospital?

hospital?

Birthday

Birthday

sigh

sigh

i cut

i cut

Better

Better

no want to live

no want to live

Hospital

Hospital

Trying to hang on

Trying to hang on

Crashing

Crashing

From My Dad

From My Dad

Positives and more

Positives and more

..and then he cut

..and then he cut

Ramblings

Ramblings

I blew it

I blew it

Positives

Positives

SI or not?

SI or not?

Pushing thoughts away

Pushing thoughts away

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